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Saturday, July 23, 2005

Mentally exhasted!!! 

Recently being hearing stories or complaints from my coleks regarding their workloads and stresses coming out from the expectations to meet tight deadlines... esp when new projects coming up, which we have to prepare tender doc(future contract doc), when we have to clock in late hours to finish the task, sometimes up to 12, 1 or 2am or even the whole night until the next morning just to deliver to the A, f/A, or even p.p plus the stress of getting the tender doc properly done as it will be consider a contract, if something is missing from the doc, will auto becomes our fault.so they's even thinking of quiting and finding positions but in the same industry. Been in this situation b4 when i was doing my ITP, so could partly understand their feelings. Can work until your mind doesnt want to work, but in order to hit the deadline, sometimes our bodies are being pushed to work to it limits. That kind of mental torture!!! Aiyoh...

Last week, have been rushing to clear the p.p to be submit by Monday, also worked OT daily, even to the point of working past midnight on Friday and went back office to finish on sunday morning... just to clear the shit that my predecessor have left behind, before i took over... :( Sometimes i also felt unappreciated of my work done... Got a m. colek, my superior, even claimed one of the seats p.p done by her to one of my colek, when it's me who done everything by myself( even though my assoc requested her to guide me, when we were at the site, she instead of guiding me when to burger king to have her breakfast... then leave me with that contractor.. :( ), but i think that incident have left a deep inpression on my associate... if he got eyes to see, the vast differences in my seats pp presentation and hers... think her's really no substance. Not that i'm boasting of myself but i think i have tried my best and i think it's quite well done, even my associate thinks so.. Anyway, the incident on Monday was my final straw, think she cannot take it when i pointed out her mistakes in the morning, and then the rest of the day, she keep targeting at me...

Since then, thoughts of asking transfer have been more clearer, dont think i can tahan working with her... Have talked to one of the Nav sis, but she challegued me to win her over, but how? when i'm myself was overcome by my own emotions? :(

Have started telling pp that i will be going HK this Nov, quite excited about it since HK will have a new Disneyland... Have been wanting to go Disneyland but S11 not enuff so cant go to the one in Japan or US (dont even dare to dream) ;p yeah, at least can look forward to it, instead of dwelling on the happenings in my office esp my team!!!

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Saturday, July 09, 2005

Snail Saturday.... (Got nothin to put as title) :p 

Saturday seems to be quite slow and draggy today, think possible that i have brought some work home due to my inefficient at work this week, but then i have cleared all the urgent but not very important task, but left with those not very urgent but quite impt things to clear... Not very urgent task, but i just wanna find something to do at home this weekend, but seems i have accomplish nothin as i have not started on it since morning...

Once in the blue moon, i would wake up quite late during weekends, today manage to pull myself out of bed at around 10.30am... as i slept quite late last night after cell.... Reached home past 11.30 and dilly dally a bit, past midnight. :( Was almost late for the physical assessment at A but was thankful when the trainer called me that the appt have to be pushed to a later time. God Intervention? the other time happened to my office access card.(Happened during the past 2 weeks)
Happened quite a number of times on diff occasions in the past but.....
That's gives me some breather, dont need to rush myself there... phew!!! Hehe.... my free physical assessment turns out to be quite okay, just that i know where i need to work on. the personal trainer gives me a number of good points from my body which i never notice until she points it out. Just read W's email, then realised that's it's the league final, just slip out of my mind... but anyway, it's always almost six... i cant do anything too... :)

Time to get back to my "home-Work"... ;-s

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