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Friday, January 19, 2007

Ultimate Tribute to a dear brother and frisbee-mate.... 

Guess this week, i'm still reeling from the shock from the news that a brother from Hope has passed away last sunday.... when i got the sms from my CGL that one of our hoppies, William Loo has passed away... i was super stunned.... as i was on my way to church.... as i was awaken from my sleep... i couldnt believed my eyes what i saw.... At the back of my mind, how could this happened to William Loo... He's so healthy and strong.... i simply cannot accept the fact that my dear brother will leave us like this.... this way.... so sudden... that's y i didnt replied back coz i just couldnt believed and convinced myself... Then i just cried out... why?? I was too shocked... and i didnt know how to react... sat in the bus... stoned til i reach church.... and i was late for service....

But pastor B confirmed my fears during his prayers.... tears just rolled down my cheeks.... =(Okie, actually i'm not very close with WL at hope til when we started serving at the sports ministry...well, WL is someone that most of the people would love to be near with.... not because of his looks but for who he is.... he's very real and very personal to very one he met... and his enthusiasm will passed on to everyone of us... he would never fails to say hi to everyone at hope service... so he's sort of the person who will brighten up the skies.... even the skies may look bleak... Many good memories and impression of WL.... was indeed been so thankful to be able to know such a wonderful, helpful, friendly, very real and personal friend when i reflected and while praying for Elaine..... at the same time, i gave thanks to God that how much WL have influenced so many people while he's on earth with us... how's his life have changed us, bring more people in knowing Jesus.... The crowds at his wake for the many nights testified that the deep impact he have left behind in so many people's lives.... well, i guess God will certainly say to him... "Well done, my good and faithful servant"... Hopefully at God's perfect timing, this people whom WL have impacted will give their lives to Jesus too.... His sudden departure is a real reminder that our lives is like a mist that disappears after a while.... Though like what pastor Sng had shared, though William Loo lived a short life, he lived well and a good witness for Christ. Also at work place, hear the testimonies from his bro-in-law (1 of the example), how he will give his best in everything that he did, from the very mundane task at his workplace as he helped his coleks at the counters and how he pestered his coleks for all the details so that he can put fore his best even such a simple job, and the many testimonies too... and he really go out of the way even though he may not need to do so, to help his bro-in-law to bring the keys to and fro from his place... that shows how he really cared.... and he did it in actions too. a walking testimony indeed!!!

I always enjoyed the many worships that he led, always ministered and touched by the Spirit of God, the powerful worship, showed his intimacy relationship and his greatest desire to worship God and this desire always transferred to the rest of the hope worshippers.... everytime, he led worship, the slides never fails to show the images of the flats at P.... showed of his heart to want to fulfil God's vision for Hope.... to carry God's mission for him... His heart for the lost souls at P etc.... well, i too enjoyed the many new songs he introduced to us... but 1 of the songs that deeply touches me though i have forgotten the name of the songs... but the lyrics i still remember vivadly though.... hmmm, i like that song too.... "Throne of Praise" 1 of the songs.... Til now, i can still remember his powerful singing voice....

Hmmm, many of my fond memories of William Loo came from our interactions at the field and during rare opportunities to talk with him at hope service... Personally, i'm learned a lot from him, not just from the weekly frisbee sessions but also interracting with him at hope service... Beginning when i started playing frisbee, everytime he saw me, he would never fails to ask me whether i'm going for the game or not.... he always showed his care and concern to everyone he knew... it's just him lor... well, i was always encouraged by this brother on the field.... though he's really good but he always never fails to say encouraginging words when sometimes when we off form or discouraged.... his commitments to sport ministry even though when Elaine was pregnant with Estelle... he would always try to make it.... Til recently when he was caught up with work at his new workplace, he would still take time to come down for the games... He was good, yet he did not boast of his skills, but always sharing with us his experiences from the league, esp to the gals in the Ultimate Hope... and practice with the gals and hence all of our skills improved vastly because of his patience and his desire to see everyone our skills improved.... One thing that i have learned from Loo is that he never played to win, how graciously he played in the game.... even when his team lost, he will still played with that grace....

I'm very grateful and thankful to William Loo for the many tips he shared with me on how to improve my game, there's many times when he got to repeat himself many many times, yet he always say it gently.... eh, there's was 1 time, when he nid to tell me a truth, yet he said it with love... i gladly receive it...

i always tell myself that there's got lotsa of opportunities to thank him for how much thankful to be able how blessed i am to know him and the so much encouragements and helps... but when the 2nd time after he showed to me my weaknessess in my game... i felt this super urge to want to thank him for teaching me so much and his enocouragements and how thankful i am... i just simply dumped all my pride and run across the field as he was leaving for home after our usual game.... and tell him how thankful i am and this time i asked him when he will be coming to join us for the next game and as usual, he smiled and said he would try. and that was the last time, i saw him at the field... many times, i always procrastinated... but if i have procrastinated that day, i would never have any such chance to say it to him again.... One thing that he did (quite sometime ago) really touches my heart... even though we wasnt very close... This incident will always remind in my memory as long as i can remembers....

I took 1 day off from work on thursday so that i could be there send our dear brother off to heaven... and also took time to reflect my life too... and also rest physically.... the last 4 nights have tiring since after work, i would rush down to the wake and stayed til quite late every day and even though my helps there would be rather limited but at least i wanted Elaine to know that we cared for her and as a family of Christ, we also grieved with her the lost.... Also wanted to encouraged and be a pillar of support to her by being there physically and praying for her too... Through this times, i really see how close the hope of family is.... esp the leaders and people whom we have served together in be it Music, welcome, Hope or even CS people. Gosh... so amazed that even though the people whom we never see since CS days also came.... Now that the funeral is over, like HZ said, how we could continued be a support to Elaine raise up the family as a family of Christ... not just praying but practical helps also.... lending our hands, feets, and ears when she needed most now....

The last few days at work was quite restless and terrible for me as i just couldnt concentrated fully at work, with memories flooded around my head and hence ends up with a lot of unproductive. Was very tired at work as i struggled to stay awake and stay focused.

I have been so marveled at how God sustained and kept Elaine and her trust in our Lord for strength and her prayer requests and her desire in putting her trust in God... The many fond memories and the deep love that William Loo showed to her in words and in actions... the 1 that the first song that he's chasing her, quite a romance guy.... and how he protected Elaine when she was in danger.... Will continue to pray for this sister that she will grow even stronger during this time and her faith in God will strengthen even more as she relies totally on God for his providence and strength and support. and offer my hands, feets and practical helps and listening ears with all i can do to help this dear sister.. i am very encouraged by a brother after the service at CCK when we back at the multi-purpose hall when he offered his help and ask her anytime she needs help, just call....

Indeed, i am very sad of the fact that the Willaim who always bring hope, always imspire us so postively, impacted us so much to us , have left us earlier... Though i could not understand why God have to take him back at such a young age as he got lot more to offer to God with his life to bless even more people and serve God as a worship leader, frisbee player, Hope people, his family members and his coleks... But.... He has finished his race well and cheering for us at the end point... i shall strive to live my life well, finish the race and we shall see one another in heaven together with our dear brother, William Loo... Til that day comes.... I shall live my life as if it's my last day on earth and with no regrets.... and live my life well....

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Saturday, January 13, 2007

Outing to Singapore Science Centre... 

It's been a long long time since i last stepped into the science centre.... wow, and it has changed so much that i could believed my eyes.... inside have upgraded and changed a lot except the facade.... which changed a bit.... =)

Wanted to go gym before i meet up with my fren.... but end up at home washing all my laundry.... So end up i may drop by gym before going to the church service tmr morning.... or after service lor... Hmmmm, the last 2 days have been drizziling and today no exception. Me and my fren genna caught in the drizzle.... and lost our way....

But guess we still managed to find out way there after getting some help from helpful passby people!!!!

We had a fun time, watching the imax movie though it more educational rather than those typical movies.... but quite a experience leh.... surrounded by the screen rather than we face the squarish screen in front of us.... then after which we explore every part of the science centre and played and enjoyed ourselves with the kiddish yet educational stuffs... hehe.... Never imagine that i would stepped into the science centre after so many years since the last time i stepped into is like donkey years ago. Still got other places that i would like to explore other parts of singapore.... many, and still counting.... like the Zoo, bird park (i never been inside before), Palau Ubin, St John Island, Sister Island, Changi beach....

So tired after a whole day of walking!!! Shall go and Zzzzzzzz..... =P

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Wednesday, January 10, 2007

Met an "angel" during lunch time.... 

Vic wrote in his email to us.... long time ago when he mysterious angel when he needed help most... Guess today, i also have this "special" encounter with a "angel" while walking back to office at our office basement carpark lobby when i met someone from the 7th storey office... shall not name which company lah. Okay, here's goes.... i was walking afar from the carpark entrance, i noticed this "angel" walking in the opposite direction towards me.... Somehow i just felt something different... okay, maybe i was really tired at that time.... Oops... Oh, by the time i reached the lift lobby, met up wit "A"... So she smiled at me and started a simple conversation, by the time i reached my office, i was warmly feeling encounter and a nice time chatting with this angel.... hehe.... It also at the same time brightened up my day.... =)

Before i left for lunch, i was feeling tired and lethagic.... I myself also dun know why.... Have been quite unproductive at work the last 2 days.... So end up, to perk myself at work, i went to treat myself something nice... Have a happy meal... hopefully i will be more happy, i guess..... It's quite rare for me to eat Mac.

Also went to the Optical shop to collect my long overdue contact lens which i was supposed to collect last year 2 days before Xmas Eve, but due to the heavy rain last year, the depatch man couldnt delivered on time for collection.... Probably get lost in the rain... Ya, it became true today when i went down to collect 6mths contact lens and 1 free trial pair since the last time i wear is without any astigmatism but for longer term, i would prefer with some astigmatism. Guess what!!! When they managed to find my contact lens, only left with 1 side of the contact lens, while the other side was missing.... so i started using, i cannot returned everything back if dun get used to wearing with astigmatism one... End up the optician offered to give to me plus the free trial pair... (not 1 eye only), but when i asked when it will be ready, they gave me a blank answer.... Oh goodness me, i have paid the deposit and it's hanging in lingo. and i dun even noe when they will come back to me!!!

Okay, back to work... I have a big big quarrel with boss today... My mood wasnt at the best and i simply snapped at her.... I'm quite have enuff of her.... Sometimes, i tried to reasoned and talked with a lot of sensitive with her but.... sometimes end up, i have to take all the blame for the mistake that wasnt mine.... Crap.... And often, when she instructed me to do certain task and after that when she totally forgetten... and everytime, i will genna scolded for nothing and even accused of trying to be "smart". Oh... i'm broken.... inside and outside.... Just simply dun have the slightest idea how to work with her! Often when i initiated to help her, with/without telling her... when she found out.. i will genna again... =( Sometimes, i see a lot of things that i really dun want to know, cause i cant tell her straight in the face or i will be tearing her down but i also cant pretend that the problem doesnt exist.... Aiyah.... how!!! I'm completely lost.... with no solutions in my head to counter the long existed problem.

Aiyah, if i would be more wiser and matured in dealing with complicated relationship.... I need more of God's wisdom. =P Well, i'm still learning to work and really love people which sometimes so unlovable.... but if i love those who love me, then i wont be any different from those pagans... Though very very very very.... super difficult to treat my boss with love and respect... i'm still clueless now. Well....

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Monday, January 08, 2007

Monday Blues.... 

Okay lah.... not that Monday blue after all.... after all it's Monday. =)

Ya, i have a short and a snail Monday.... given that i'm quite tired together, struggling to stay awake and focused at my work.... And i had a small mis-understanding with my boss early in the morning today... But i was amazed at my reaction to her... Okay, not that i'm soooo "holely"..... but....

Well, i was reading a book on "Enjoying the Presence of God", it shared with us how to enjoy the presence of God.... not just limiting to our daily quiet time, ETWG, or sunday worship or cell group meeting.... but everyday, every minute, every seconds.... even in our workplace as well... though the concept of bringing God to work does not seem "alien" to me, but to really practise it out in front of my coleks seems strange... Of course with all the "bombs" thrown at me occasionally.... increasing... how i reacted this morning doesnt justified how i'm been treated... Hence focusing on God rather than on the matter which i felt is not justified, does helps a lot.... the way i reacted to my boss... Well.... I'm still in the process of learning of surrendering my rights to God rather i react to justify myself when i knew i'm wrongly accused!!! Am also in the process of mending my brokeness within me... =(

Last saturday, i went to attend my poly-classmates cum ex-colek's wedding... and happens i was sitted same table with my boss and my company executive director and some ex-coleks.... aiyo, cannot explained the 'strangeness' when i have to sit next to her for the whole duration of the wedding dinner.... But unfortunately, i was supposed to group together with our class-mates... and so many of us came, filled 2 tables... hence me and the other classmates sat with our coleks... Ya, after dinner, i went over to catch up with my poly-classmates.... from class 1A/01-02... Oops... we had a fun time, catching up.... and guess what, majority i knew have left the construction industry... so when i told them i'm still in QS line, they so shocked that they asked me i'm still a QS.... some even asked me am i'm thinking of leaving.... quite true that construction industry is still one of the most challeging line... so complicated that we have to deal with so many people in 1 project... guess it do drains off my energy sometimes.... but.... well, after lost all my poly classmates contact many years ago... have never had a opportunity to catchup with them and i didnt pass my handphone to them during poly days... so quite some of us totally lost contact until the dinner... wow, such a wonderful time and a timely dinner that we can catch up again... so reminded of the good old days being a building student. =) shall meet up one of these days again.... =)

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Saturday, January 06, 2007

KTV..... 

Yup.... went KTV after a long long time of wanting to go but didnt do anything.... today went with one of my fren, and ya.... i had a great time singing out my lungs and got to met up with my fren and catching up and fellowshipping.... wow, truly enjoyed myself very much today. =)

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Friday, January 05, 2007

Cell.... 

Today we celebrated Jess's birdday even though belated by 1 day!!!

As usual, or most of the time, we celebrated at J8 Swensen place.... and because of the vouchers we had from our Hope Anniversary Captain Ball friendly.... we all had a very full meal today... with 1 guest from Aihui's cell.... Guess we all enjoyed ourselves today... including the birdday gal. Time passes so fast, though it may seems ages ago since our cell have a celebration 1 year ago.... but it's again we celebrate for her.... Our cell have been much blessed with 1 new member, Jas... she certainly bring much joy and laughter to our group and of course not forgtting our old timer comedian.... WB... Cannot imagine, i'm with this cell for coming to 4 years... if i remembered correctly??? Oops... so long yet it's seems like yesterday thing.... anyway... i'm felt that i'm equally so fortunate to be with this group....

Well, just recently had this funny idea to go and learn dancing just to brush up my dancing.... Hmmm, like what i wanted to learn guitar but end up sitting on it Actually quite missed dancing.... hmmm, did i shared before in my blog??? Oops.... when dancing becomes a personal worship to God does makes sense for me wanting to continue dance for the Lord.... Missed fellowshipping with the rest of the gals and guys and sharing tips of improving on our dance....

Esp our gathering at PY's place on 2 Jan 07... We had a good outing of different variety of food cooked by PY and Princess Ariel.... Also enjoyed each other fellowship and commenting a lot esp CI... hehe... hmmm.... but i broke my promise to wash the dishes.... but if there's opportunity again, i will volunteer again... Certainly, as we reflected and watched our dance video clips from our very first practise to our actual performance.... I watched it with awe and amazed at what God has been doing at this dance group and the vast improvement of our dance steps from the 1st til our actual performace.... Praise God for what He has done and still in the process of doing something amazing in this ministry. Heard their sharings of being a small group til now of 13 dancers.... with few potential coming in... think our dance ministry going to overflow with dancers... and also watched their past performances... wow.... it's so exciting.... Saw their latin dance with the youths....not easy though... anyway, i have committed myself the next dance and am equally excited and looking forward to it. and putting my all and everything to dance for God.... =D

Was reading one of the blog which today she sent her blog address to us.... actually quite encouraged by her trust in God... and i think we are really blessed to have her around....

Recently got hooked to this online game called Audition.... Was quite cool to it at the beginning but as i got better and after upgrading the pc... and plus broadband speed allows me to play this online game til quite late into the night.... causing me lack of sleep.... So tired.... am going to sleep and rest my tired body during this weekend....

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Monday, January 01, 2007

Night at the Museum.... 

Went watching a movie with a fren today at PS.... was pretty tired.... after a long day plus i slept really late yesterday after watchnight service and our Hope prayer slot from 12am to 1am plus some late night supper.... *yawning*......

Wow the movie was quite nice and funny.... esp the monkey always do the things to irritate the male lead... haha.... was laughing almost the whole movie.... it's always good to watch comedy movie to laugh myself off.... Af first i thought what's a Night at the Museum got any exciting storyline to tell.... crazy animals chasing a night guard around the museum!!!! But as the movie continues, it has a interesting plot with the 3 security guards trying to get hold of the tablet so that they can have extra power from it.... so crap... izzit??? at first, i thought that since the tablet was made of gold, maybe they trying to get some riches from it since they have been "forced to leave" the museum who's cutting costs. I like the "greatness" part of the line from the US ex president... guess that sometimes, when we see ourselves nothing when we can be some1 great.... not that i'm seeking to do great things but rather i see as i can do great things for God.... in my own limitations.

A bit sayang.... coz i have wasted 5 tkts (1 from GV and 4 from EW) which i wanted to bless my frens .... but i was too caught up with a lot of things and i forgot to go and exchange to the movie tkts.... at least i can use the tkts up to next end of this year.... was a bit disappointed and sad though.... really wanna use these tkts for good use.... Esp i got the free 1 tkt from California Fitness when i joined the club.... =( maybe tis year when i extend the package, maybe got another 1 movie tkt... hehe... if i have not procrastinate way before the expiry of the movie vouchers!!! i always wasted my free vouchers.... Another one is from Amore which i can use it for spa there and Bioterm products... think i rather give them away next time rather than keeping until i forgot and let it expires....

As i reflected what has happened last year 2006, though i dun wanna say that it's boring, uneventful year, but at the same time, i'm thankful that year 2006 has been a training year for me, times of difficult times, struggles, seeing God deliver me, His faithfulness, His promises when i needed most and how God see me through last year.... despite of my failures, rebellous... etc.... well....
Will be excited to approach year 2007 with much expectations and seeing how God going to mould me and change me.... A verse that strike me almost close to the end of last year from John 15:1-17.0 which God has showed me during the silent retreat during Hope camp 2006.. a whole passage but only a few verses... that Jesus is the vine and i'm that branches, in order that i bear fruit, i must remain in the vine. Am looking forward to a deeper and closer relationship my God, seeking to glorify in everything i do.... No matter how busy i will be this new year, i will commit myself in seeking God and growing in my own spiritual life as well

Tmr, going to have fellowship at PY's place.... Am looking forward to tmr gathering... so missed them.... Oh.....But seems that this round of break (of public holidays), i didnt have the time to have physical rest, but i enjoyed every minute of this round of break.... plus break from work.

Going to Zzzzz..... Have a blessed new year 2007 to everyone!!! =)

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