A Time to Reflect with Thanksgiving.

This coming pay check will be my 2nd one since i join the firm, time passes so slow, seems like i'm in the firm for a long time... and it's shd be the right time to give a sis-in-christ a treat since i last promised her a treat almost 3 mths ago at Olio Dome. Since then, though i had got my first pay check, has been procastinating until now... :(

It's Time to stop "PROCASTINATE". (Areas where i shd also stop procastinating... hehe..)

Thoughts of the day :-)
Since it's been quite sometime i have posted, shall include last week thoughts as well. Happened last wednesday when i was lazing ard my hse, suddenly got the urge to check my mail for no good reason. So when while i was waiting for the mails to come in, something caught my eyes, the title stated" M's pass away" dated on 15Feb, i was just shocked that i stared at the screen for a couple of minute. As far as i remembered, the last time i saw him was the time M moved house, and a couple of us went to helped M to move her stuffs until early in the morning. That's was 4 years ago.
He was still a non-believer, and we could see how M continuely prayed and cared for her dad. and now he's with Jesus in heaven. God really loves us that though we keep rejecting him, he never gives us up. But this reminds me of how fraile life is, like the grass will withers...

so i decided to go on thursday evening to pay my last respect it will be the service that night. anyway too shocked, i called up A, and at the same time check with her if she's going as well. Had a good chat with her and finally found that she's also got to know of the news and was thinking of going. So both of us decided to go
So on thursday, as i was thinking of taking a half day leave to go earlier, have my own doubts of my leave not approved. As iwas thinking over it, was reminded in one of my QT that though man will toss the dice but it's the Lord who determine where it falls.

My leave was approved on the spot and thus i got half a day to spare, so had lunch with my insurance agent, not to increase my coverage for my protection of coz as many will have this impression. :p Just to catch up with her and to inform her as well since she knew her also. went to help A to do some errands since she's too busy with her teacher's stuffs and met up with her. As i was writing consolence to her, so many thoughts yet nothin to write... hmmm, so frustrating!! Met LH,ML,ML2,AC,etc.. Chatted with tem and found out that even long time didnt contacted them, they still know all the stuffs and happenings at Hope, ya, the "antenna" changed from flo to ML, and YQ mentioned oh, ML said that yr f's skills v. gd."... that ML! Opps before i forgets, Nav pp tends to be more exaggerate. hheheee...
FINALLY...
AS what the paster said at the service; don't wait too long to say words of appreciations or showing your love to your loved ones before it's too late.

Today brought work from office home to finish. Gosh, will have to submit by tomorrow morning and i was only given the task only late afternoon, just couldnt bring myself to complete the task before though i can finish within a hr. So have to get back to work later.
:(

Few more hours before... and i will pass a quarter century old... Sobs...sobs... Just wanna tell the whole world that i'm still a quarter century old before will have no chance to say any more... :p
seriously, a lot thoughts passes thru my mind the past few days... hmmm, getting mature in age and yet seems not much of achievements and not getting mature in my age. i think! Oh, better not let these thoughts to pull me down. prayed a lot as i reflected a lot also, it's time for me to pull up my socks before i'm old and dying in bed, regreting not doing anything in my youth. That's will be a tragic if i allow that to happen.

From now onwards, i shall not let circumstances to lead me, but to be lead by God. Today, i make this covanant with God that i will submissive in my Spiritual walk with God my Saviour and faithfully study His Word daily, in my prayer life and trusting Him every seconds. Enjoying in God's presence always. Psalms 27:4
Signed off,
Dawn

As usual, on the first day, i will be out to my relatives' place for CNY visits... Hmmmm, this year there's a lot of babies coming along at my relatives' place and e 1st time i saw my cousin's daughter and Oh my goodness, she's so big. Have to admit that i'm not that young after all.hmm, never got to see her until now since she's borned. saw my another cousin's son, the last time i saw him was just an infant, and now he's walking around.. hMmmM....More to come!!!!

Had a tiring day, rushing from place to place, but thankfully, i need to travel to only 2 places where all the relatives will gathered. Now back home, resting my tired feet.

Tommorrow, i dont have to work...hehe...finally i can set myself sometime with the Lord for a ETWG, it's been quite a overdue thing which i have been wanting to do but bad time time management has always kept me. I'm been planning to set some time in prayer and extra time in the Word, especially after the sharing by R and PDL ......i'm looking forward to tomorrow to have some quiet time with God and some issues to resolve.

it's been a long time since i have set aside to spend time with God for ETWG, in bible reading, prayers and all those stuffs like scripture memorizing, reviewing etc... Hmmm, i realised that i'll had been trying too hard on myself in my spiritual life, it's also prompt me that there's something missing in my relationship with God, the spark that causes the passion to want to know God and know His Word, the passion to witness... Where is my hunger now? I dont know and am lost... it's just simply lostness....

Think i have been trying too hard on myself until i'm burnout esp at work..... meet up to my superiors and seniors's expectations... seems like everyday once i stepped into office, i feel like i'm inside a fierce battle field except instead of rifles hurtful words are being fired out, often my PQS and QS-in-charge got lectured quite badly everyday, and after got scolded or lectured by my associate, they will likely to throw their frustrations on me or show me their blackened face... think i was quite affected by their behaviours though they kept saying that they wont try to show me bad examples but seems they are always contradicting. and the fault wasnt mine, and still i have to bear their frustations, this really pissed me off... my morale at work have been low and it's seems that the work that i produced shows it clearly...just couldnt concentrated on my tasks...

Know that it's quite negative of me to have such thoughts...
but i just wanna let out my frustrations only... Guess it's time for me to go repent of my sins and ask God for forgiveness (1 Jn 1:9).. after a long time of struggles!!!

I wanted to be refreshed, recharged, renewed and re-focused again! :)

Thought that sat, finally i can go and get my stuffs for Chinese New Year and here i'm glued to my office's table and chair, still unable to accomplished my work for today...Hmmm, was set to want to complete the measurements by today so that i wont be so rushing on Monday but since i so unproductive today. Might as well comtinued it on Monday. :) hehe, quite a good "excuse" for me to leave my work behind... and not feeling guilt over it...
Okay, have to hurry myself and get back to unfinished taskssss, if not cannot find the urgency to finish my work then Monday will see thunderstorm as what my colek said just now. :p