Saturday, May 13, 2006
It's gonna b Sunday again!!!
Just woke up after a short nap.... Zzzzz.. =) Just simply too tired to "Dong" after i reached home late afternoon... went to Ikea and got myself a potted plant which i have been eyeing for the past 1 mth... (y i went to Ikea, cos i got myself locked out of the house, bring out the wrong keys- i meant i have taken out some old keys out so am stucked outside e hse, so while waiting for my parent's rescue since they also outside "partoking")..hmmm, at first went to sleep with e intention to sleep until tmr morning... but guess i have lost the "ability" to sleep such lengthy rest...(except few months back had done once when i slept at abt 8 until e next day 8 plus)... so end up wake up just now, doing nothing but no choice must find something to do.. so blog lor.... Now even though i maybe tired, i will still insist on "donging", til i collapsed...
Just realised that time can passes by so fast without me knowing... (think it's due to the fact that i have to work OT everyday, sometimes to close to early morning the following day)... but i'm not e only one in my team doing that... almost half of my team work to close to midnight, and just this friday, we had our first casualty of the month felling ill due to working late every day... not just that physically tiring, we seems to have lost our social life... ( e PQS who doing on e BQ tender lament ed that she didnt had time to socialise)... see her work almost 7 days and depending on her strength on those isotonic drink... if she has no one to turn to for her daily strength... then how about me???
A thought for me to realised it... Just shared with someone a thought of mine to allocate time for work, and set a limits for working OT... e latest i must leave office by 7 or 7.30pm.. beside it's will give me time for other things that's have higher priority that just work, Time with God, time with love ones like my family, friends, coleks at work... i think it would give me greater empahsis during work and less procrastinations thus leading to work OT... and of course focusing on the more impt tasks on hand... Got started only this week, though not very successful in handling all my work... but it's helps me to stay focus on one tasks more efficient and less mistakes... have to fine-tune my planning every day each morning, time before i start work, had to work on my daily task-list... so will focus on higher priority tasks first... which i hope that with that i will be able to make it for weekly prayer meets, cell meetings. I'm have lost count of the times i have missed cell..
I think that i too dun have anyone to turn to for strength cos God is my strength and my sustainer... Though i would say that i seems to lost time due to the fact that when i got myself indulge with work, where's God? Of course, i cant turn back e clock and re-done the things that i have done in e past...things that i had done with regrets, hurts that i have indirectly caused to my love ones (which includes my direct boss), e only thing i can do now is to look forward to e future with hope... plus gained experience... not forgetting that God's my Hope.
Was indeed quite encouraged during one of the lessons that i have learned during one of the BSF lessons... one of the thoughts that touches me, gives me hope and strength to run ahead knowing that with confidence...
it's taken from the book of Hebrews 4:15-16... but also quoted in verse 14 as well..
v14" Therefore, since we have a great high priest who has gone through the heavens, Jesus the Son of God, let us hold firmly to the faith we profess. V15 For we do not have a high priest who is unable to sympathize with our weakness but we have one who has been tempted in every way, just as we are - yet was without sin. V16 Let us then approach the throne of grace with confidence, so that we may receive mercy and find grace to help us in our time of need."
Ever since started on the book of Genesis, i have find something that's quite new to me about my knowledge of God... that indeed my understanding of the Word, i would say, is quite shallow... esp on the part of God's patience of waiting for sinners to repent of their sin, hmmm, first one was the Noah's Ark, Bethel Tower...... the list goes on... Sometimes, i used to think that does Jesus understand my sufferings? those times when i have to endure and holding on? though i have memorised hebrews 2:18 "Because he himself (referring to Jesus) suffered when He was tempted, He is able to help those who are been tempted)... what have i hold on? on God's promise... It's once again a promise that i can hold on and rely on when i'm weak.
Had ever shared during the discussion groups, that times when i fell in my spiritual walk, knowing that God will allow me to have chances to repent... until His ultimate judgement on menkind... but i too, cannot take this for granted...
Also shared with my DL, during our chat on the phone, times i complain, grumbled to her my struggles.. how her encouragements got me going... Oh ya, before i forgets, had shared with her that all the bible knowledge i got, that i realised it's just simply head-knowledge... Have been learning to put it into practice, though times seems beyond my ability...
Relationships with my direct boss improved... aiyah, dun know y? but seems broken realationships always breaks my heart... Times when i couldnt understand y it happens, but i have to trust God for His Sovereignty. Had tried out the prayer that i have learnt (forgot where i have learnt) Oops, getting more forgetful each day...but anyway.... thanking God in advance... just that there's no verse in the bible that i can claim on... Am i praying based on blind faith?? But i do see situation has changed, in my attitude towards her, her responses etc... things dun get as heaty as before... and i have to learn to be thankful to God for everything that had happened in my life... things that's in e past, but also days ahead as well. I'm praying that i will surrender to God all my weakness, esp pridefulness which i have shaked off, which then it came back to haunt me... this week, i have done with the help from God... and i'm thankful that our working relationships improved, though friendship is still far from fully restored... I'm on the process of relearning to forgive and forgets...
Just remembered a thing that i had always wanted to do, since i really procrastinate too too long... n i believed that e person waiting for that, also waited until the neck can becomes "giraffe's neck"shall put it to action tonight... Okay, enuff of my lengthy blog. =P shall Stop here...
Just realised that time can passes by so fast without me knowing... (think it's due to the fact that i have to work OT everyday, sometimes to close to early morning the following day)... but i'm not e only one in my team doing that... almost half of my team work to close to midnight, and just this friday, we had our first casualty of the month felling ill due to working late every day... not just that physically tiring, we seems to have lost our social life... ( e PQS who doing on e BQ tender lament ed that she didnt had time to socialise)... see her work almost 7 days and depending on her strength on those isotonic drink... if she has no one to turn to for her daily strength... then how about me???
A thought for me to realised it... Just shared with someone a thought of mine to allocate time for work, and set a limits for working OT... e latest i must leave office by 7 or 7.30pm.. beside it's will give me time for other things that's have higher priority that just work, Time with God, time with love ones like my family, friends, coleks at work... i think it would give me greater empahsis during work and less procrastinations thus leading to work OT... and of course focusing on the more impt tasks on hand... Got started only this week, though not very successful in handling all my work... but it's helps me to stay focus on one tasks more efficient and less mistakes... have to fine-tune my planning every day each morning, time before i start work, had to work on my daily task-list... so will focus on higher priority tasks first... which i hope that with that i will be able to make it for weekly prayer meets, cell meetings. I'm have lost count of the times i have missed cell..
I think that i too dun have anyone to turn to for strength cos God is my strength and my sustainer... Though i would say that i seems to lost time due to the fact that when i got myself indulge with work, where's God? Of course, i cant turn back e clock and re-done the things that i have done in e past...things that i had done with regrets, hurts that i have indirectly caused to my love ones (which includes my direct boss), e only thing i can do now is to look forward to e future with hope... plus gained experience... not forgetting that God's my Hope.
Was indeed quite encouraged during one of the lessons that i have learned during one of the BSF lessons... one of the thoughts that touches me, gives me hope and strength to run ahead knowing that with confidence...
it's taken from the book of Hebrews 4:15-16... but also quoted in verse 14 as well..
v14" Therefore, since we have a great high priest who has gone through the heavens, Jesus the Son of God, let us hold firmly to the faith we profess. V15 For we do not have a high priest who is unable to sympathize with our weakness but we have one who has been tempted in every way, just as we are - yet was without sin. V16 Let us then approach the throne of grace with confidence, so that we may receive mercy and find grace to help us in our time of need."
Ever since started on the book of Genesis, i have find something that's quite new to me about my knowledge of God... that indeed my understanding of the Word, i would say, is quite shallow... esp on the part of God's patience of waiting for sinners to repent of their sin, hmmm, first one was the Noah's Ark, Bethel Tower...... the list goes on... Sometimes, i used to think that does Jesus understand my sufferings? those times when i have to endure and holding on? though i have memorised hebrews 2:18 "Because he himself (referring to Jesus) suffered when He was tempted, He is able to help those who are been tempted)... what have i hold on? on God's promise... It's once again a promise that i can hold on and rely on when i'm weak.
Had ever shared during the discussion groups, that times when i fell in my spiritual walk, knowing that God will allow me to have chances to repent... until His ultimate judgement on menkind... but i too, cannot take this for granted...
Also shared with my DL, during our chat on the phone, times i complain, grumbled to her my struggles.. how her encouragements got me going... Oh ya, before i forgets, had shared with her that all the bible knowledge i got, that i realised it's just simply head-knowledge... Have been learning to put it into practice, though times seems beyond my ability...
Relationships with my direct boss improved... aiyah, dun know y? but seems broken realationships always breaks my heart... Times when i couldnt understand y it happens, but i have to trust God for His Sovereignty. Had tried out the prayer that i have learnt (forgot where i have learnt) Oops, getting more forgetful each day...but anyway.... thanking God in advance... just that there's no verse in the bible that i can claim on... Am i praying based on blind faith?? But i do see situation has changed, in my attitude towards her, her responses etc... things dun get as heaty as before... and i have to learn to be thankful to God for everything that had happened in my life... things that's in e past, but also days ahead as well. I'm praying that i will surrender to God all my weakness, esp pridefulness which i have shaked off, which then it came back to haunt me... this week, i have done with the help from God... and i'm thankful that our working relationships improved, though friendship is still far from fully restored... I'm on the process of relearning to forgive and forgets...
Just remembered a thing that i had always wanted to do, since i really procrastinate too too long... n i believed that e person waiting for that, also waited until the neck can becomes "giraffe's neck"shall put it to action tonight... Okay, enuff of my lengthy blog. =P shall Stop here...
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