A Time to Reflect with Thanksgiving.

A bit regret of buying something that i may not need.... okay except to wear to office where it's quite cold... =( Oops... Anyway cant blame anyone but myself??? anyway shall make full use of that purchase... wont let a mistake to spoil my future shopping, but a valuable lesson learned... keke... shall wear to church later... haha... if i'm not scared of heat-stroke later...

Today read a interesting article found in the Sunday Times in the "Think" Section by Janadas Devan .... of the different people in different shapes and their personalities....find quite interesting and educating.... okay, not veryone can be applied to these theories but overall his written thoughts and research, on 3 types of physical and their behaviour... 1) Endormorphs which is in physical terms gut-centred (Layman terms which equivalent to fat), 2) Mesomorphic (muscle-centred or "beefy") 3) Ectomorphic (Nerve-centred/painfully thin)...Something linking to the one of the psychlogist Sheldon 's thoughts/explaination... Endormorphs people tends to be sociable and community-centered while the Mesomorphic tends to be active and extroverted, lastly the most skinny of the 3, Ectomorph were retiring and introverted.... many touch and go explaination to his sharings but quite amazing lor... eg... The journalist also touched on when a person's lying by his body language caused by some of the chemical released hen the person is lying or telling the truth, when a woman open to touch by her own actions etc...Those interested can turn to today's Think (Sunday Times) titled "Let's get physical".

Yesterday finally my FOC VIP with C.Fitness expires... and now no longer a A.Fitness member, i'm looking out for the rest of the other fitness clubs... like Fitness First, Planet Fitness.. but at the same time, do not wish to get tied down to a period and stuggling to make it to the gym... One of colek intro me Planet Fitness since it's very near to our office since he also looking out for a fitness club to join... as we were chatting casually...now at least when i leave office slightly early dun need feel guitly at least got company... hehe... since i'm quite well-known to everyone in my whole team who goes to gym... i'm not a workaholic by nature... so i must strike a balance between work and my own time as well... doesnt want to let work be everything in my life... so hence i have to give up doing a lot of things like chatting with coleks during working times, shorter lunch breaks, no tea breaks too so that i can knock off early...

Bought a Jay Chou CD yesterday... since i love a couple of songs inside his latest album.... like that duat song sang by Jay Chou and Fei Yu Qing... quite a unusual combination but who cares if it's a nice song... the other song i also like it too... ever since i heard it 2 weeks ago.... am enjoying and listening to the songs now. =)

Was going thru the organisation where i first met Christ... Tot of going for their annual sales but forgotten when is the date... Oops so forgetful of me... it's next mth and not Dec as i tot to be.

Actually, was quite reminded of our Hope Congragation Meeting last Sunday. Personally was very inspired and encouraged by Pastor Ed.Chn's video from this year CCC... Of being a PDA christian... P=Personal Revival, D=Divine Appointment and lastly A=Active Obedience... Though we may have different views and perspective over our outreach to our Oikos and even strangers on the streets... Oh ya, was quite encouraged by his sharing of loving people with Christ Love instead of our usual stuff of outreach... I was quite perplex in our outreach efforts, perhaps we are sort of the laid-back person... I have to come out of my comfort zone and be intentionally on reaching out to my friends and coleks... Cannot afford to laid back forever like that... if i'm not willing, then dun expect God to use me effectively as His instruments lor.

Another which has awaken my senses was the question from my BSF... ARe you prepared to die ?? something like that... not exactly the same but sama sama lah... I shared with my group that i still not prepared to leave for heaven now as i still have not live up to the life that God calls me to... fufilling my life's mission on earth. Actually, death is not uncertain, but the uncertainities when i leave.... I heard of story of pp had visions of heaven before they passed on sounds beautiful... esp of my DL's v close fren passed on... Death certainly will bring emotional emptiness esp to those closest... Oh, finally BSF finally finished for the year... and some of the lessons that i have learnt and encouraged by the lives of the different individuals like Abraham, Issac, Jacob, Joseph and his brothers and seeing how God turned from bad to good.... Esp was very encouraged by the life of Joseph... beginning from how he got sold to an Egyptian merchant and how he got blamed for doing nothin and got jailed and finally prime minister of Egypt... i cannot imagine the emotional, physical and all the sufferings that Joseph have to suffer for obeying God's plan for his life and how much God blessed him and provided for him all these while.... and Joseph did not uttered a single complain about his predicament all these while... all he knew and hold on to what God had show him a dream many many years ago... even til his last breathe he even hold on to his faith and passed down the vision and his body was kept in a cave, for the day when the I will returned to the promised land... and God rewarded his faith where many hundred years later, his body was being carried back to the promised land.

Ya, i was truly encouraged by the pp in this book... Y??? because they believed in and trusted God for something which they will never got to see in their lifetime... but yet they by their big faith did something beyond our human understanding... esp the blessings of Jacob to his 12 sons... even the endings of times, forming of the 12 tribes etc... Indeed God's sight is much far than mine, His ways much higher than mine, so does His Thoughts... My understanding and knowledge are simply too limited... to grasp that... hmmm, one of God's way simply awed me... in the beginning when man sinned against God by taking in the fruit of the good n the evil... but see how God sep and forbid man from eating the fruit of the living so that they wont get eternally separated by God and God's redemptive plan for man when He knew that man had sinned by their disobedience. Oh, when we shared with one of my BSF mates, my unerstanding of God just changed and i cannot helped but say that God indeed loved us even though we may sinned against Him and broke His Heart many many times, yet He chose to love us even though we rightly do not deserved.... See How God took so much affort to bring us back and the pain when He knew that His Son will have to come and died and suffered for our sins even though He's holy and without any sin.

Okay, looking foward to next year studying on the book of Romans... =) Am too touched and encouraged by the book of Genesis... One application that i strived to keep is to complain less... hehe...

Yesterday.... my super old fren YH and Alvin finally got married yesterday.... Both were from Quest Band and our kakis from band... somemore YH was my closest fren in my sec school, someone whom i can clicked with from sec 1 til now.... it's definitely more than 10years.... In my life, i dun have many frens whom i can pour out my heart too, and she's one of the very few... Quite happy for her and Alvin... many many years of courtship and finally they have settled down... afterall Alvin must be v patient w YH since she's can be quite demanding at times too... I like the wedding photos where they took their wedding shots in our new school.. of how they got to know each other... quite comical and funny... hehe...

Also met up my sec 1 & 2 classmates and school-mates though some have really changed... i mean their outlook... but some still at if they looked like they still the same as sec school days. Met up my band seniors, JF & HL and some of my sec school teachers. Oh, i was too overwelmed by the familar faces and catching up with old frens...... shall continue another time!!!

Tmr's a public holiday.... am cracking my head what to do tmr.... after meeting up with my fren , gym and prob lazing around at home after that.... Oh, i'm so lazy to go out tmr, hazy weather not so good to excerise outdoor... Stuffs like outdoor, hmmm.... MacRichite Treetop walk, cycling at ECP, or Harbourfront walk (ever since they opened up this mall)... have been thinking of going to shop there and have a walk down the harbour.... Quite missed the Treetop walk since it's been a long time since i conquered that 4 hr hike up and back and the cycling.... Oops... have been thinking yet didnt act it out since the haze visited us and even before that.... Tuesday again a public holiday.... was comtemplating to take a leave off on Monday but then i got BSF lessons on that evening... so no point since even i got plans in the day, yet i have to rush back to BSF later in the evening... Shall slogged myself at work instead. hmmm, maybe i shall have a walk/shopping at the Vivocity tmr since i got no plans now... shall don a mask if i have to venture outdoors to view the harbour... haha... joking lah... if i really wear a mask will definitely scared off lotsa of shoppers....

Guess i'm quite unmotivated at work.... often have to drag myself off the bed and go to work each morning. aiyah.... What's happening? I have to find out the root cause... and solved the problem. No point dragging it on... and be of no use to anyone...

Finally, it's Friday.... i mean tmr.... i'm not really excited, but guess my body is more excited than the mind.... It has been aching to have a well deserved rest after few days of struggles with my illness inside my body.... Today, just couldnt focused at work today, beside still very weak and lethegic.... Wanted quite badly to take another day of rest today, but kept myself from doing so... but end up pretty unproductive at work... Oops, my boss's gg to kill me for sure... or have i been killed without me knowing???

Well, guess i'm also looking forward to sat.... a really kind fren's offer to lend her quite expensive equipment to me since she wont be using the next 2 weeks or so.... actually, i'm not that desperate as my sis tot so... Ya, ever since i tried it out the other brand at T2 and then one of my buddy 's place... Oops, i'm have this craving to use the machine even for a short while... aiyah, i'm not that kind of person who will spurge S11 on this kind of stuffs... Would rather sweat it out.... Anyway, i'm very appreciated to this fren who offered to lend me even for a while... hehe... i'm going to indulge on myself on that machine this weekend... =)

It's hardy any word that i wanna described as coincidence... today woke up extra early to rush down for the 1st class which is St-Fit... hmmm, a lot of balancing and stretching esp strengthening the core of the body... have to forced myself to wait up even my mind is still in my dreamland.... so tired.... as the branch nearest to church is the Kovan branch so obvious choice is that branch lor since i can quickly rush there asap after class... wow, the branch there not bad sia.... sum more also got steambath and bathing facilities.... even the interior also much better than those city outlet leh... not so crowded... esp they never refill one of their cubicles... but that's e only minus pt...

Oh, as i quickly fasten my pace to church as i was a bit late.... guess who i met up with!!! it's like never i would expect to see her since i dun got much opportunity to bang into her even in church, even outside church.... Then i genna invited to her chinese oikos programme... they have a fixed outing esp this time is in church... actually when i realised that their programme clashed with our frisbee timing.... anyway, i wanted quite badly to catch up w her but then got frisbee... How??? i dun know... anyway, God pick up the pieces again..... later when W announced later that no frisbee today due to haze.... Thank you Lord for working in such a amazing way again.... As what pastor T.Y. preached today on healing.... though not very related to each other... but 1 verse that he mentioned... still sticky stucked to my memory... in Matt 7:7 "Ask and it will be given to you, seek and u will find; knock and the door will be opened to u." v8 For everyone who asks receives; he who seeks finds; and to him who knocks, the door will be opened."
To me, i often didnt ask God for healing when healing is often at my doorstep... and today realising that God always wants to heal us... but at the same time, i was quite confused why some people after been prayed for... not healed...I'm willing.... and knowing in my head that God's more willing to heal me... but y then i'm not earnestly seeking God for healing??? I too have the fear lor. Have been struggling with this persisting headache which i "tahan" until Friday until i cannot tahan anymore that i did a request... Oops... i'm not that "soft" that everything i need to request prayer list.... but then it's to the extreme that i cannot tahan any more.

Oh ya, met 2 new frens today at their chinese programme.... hmmm, actually its quite unlikely that i can speak "proper" mandarin in church... then realised the state of my chinese esp when speaking to the really chinese.. what i mean the chinese from China... how it's had "degenerated"... Oops... actually have been reading the chinese bible and also with the help of the chinese dictionary.... but when coming to sing and see the traditional chinese can be quite challenging.... hmmm... learnt how to share the gospel in chinese with help from "John 3:16 alike" materials... and from the roots of the chinese characters... Realising God how He had created the chinese charactors from the beginning... just overwhelmed me..... Oh goodness me... Cannot imagine... my mind is too shallow as compared to God.... =)

Never expect the hazy haze back again.... Oh no.... My nose and throat's going to suffer again....

Okay, cant really can blame who but only those who are responsible for the outcome of the haze... Even at this season of the year when it's suppose to heading a more cooler weather yet pp out there still... aiyah!!! Haze wasnt much worse than the 1997 where the haze really reached up to the ultimate... but the road out there when i was crossing the road isnt much better than those days lor.... and it was July and now it's Oct... u dun expect pp to clear land at this season... =(

Have terrible headaches this week and i'm almost zero operation at work... Oops, my boss like expects me to clear up all the work by this week and i have still work left dangling when i left 4 cell on friday evening... I'm getting worse at my time management and "heavy" headache helps lots by impairing my logical ability at this time, doesnt help much but added burden to my work... Being "legally excused" from work for a day doesnt help... means my boss got more reason to push the blame on me... Like what M.L. shared, if there's sum1 in my team can help share the workload, would be much better.... But the fact that, in my work scope means only the pp ic of the project can help... and the most is 2 person or the max 3 persons... unless it's a super big proj maybe the whole team lor... normally wont be that big/specialised... when i'm sick/on leave, only my proj QS can helped but normally all the work will have to wait for me to come and clear myself.... Actually, i can really freaked out when i'm sick... Cannot imagine the work piled up to the ceiling when i'm back... for even 1 day... more responsibilities means little/carefully planned leave in advance.... aiyah, maybe in this way, i will be more mindful that if i'm dun have much freedom in taking leave now as compared to last time, maybe 6 mths ago, how much even lesser my direct boss is facing?? Not long ago, 4 of my coleks went 4 a short holiday trip 2gether, it's 2 only time when all their projects have gone past the tendering stage, means more stable and more likelihood that their leave was approved... My proj also at the tail-end now, means i better clear my leave before got new projects coming in next year... =(

Okay lah, enuff of my complains!!!!! Oh, on the other hand,i enjoyed myself every much today.... Maybe it's always a weekend for me to look 4ward to when even though back of my mind, work will never ending and so what if i cant finish by friday... does it mean it e end of e proj, or me??? Stress-management:- i think i have to brush up and mastered... if not more "legally excused" day is coming...

Guess what i found today in my free time.....

I stumbled into a fren's online blog and found this...

Quite a interesting find.... it's at http://www.blogthings.com/idealcareerquiz

Just done half of my desk, cleared of all the debris and unnecessary paperworks on my desk... hard work man, since it's been ages i wanted to do sum thing to my horrible and messy table... Quite unslightly since i'm quite a messy person lor.... anyway, quite satisfied with the tonnes of papers i cleared off b4 heading home just now at abt 10pm plus a little bit...

Quite hazy as i walked to take bus home from my office which is about 2 bus stops away... since i too cheapskate to take a bus ride 2 bus stops for 63cents... i'm used to after walking for about nearly 2 years... but to walk in the haze quite challenging... firstly the visibility drops quite a lot at my workplace, then breathing in the not so clean air... can only see cars far away with their headlights... but not as bad as yesterday when i walked all the way from my office at Central Mall to Tanjong Pagar in such a bad hazy weather... but i make it... hehe.. At 1st tot was the smoke that comes from the fireworks at my workplace just now... right behind my office, did managed to see a couple of secs of the fireworks b4 it ends when i stepped out of ofc just nw... but then when i reached home, it's even more hazy...

Cannot imagine tmr Woman Day Out at the open, doing 3 hrs of Cardio latino, LO/HI areobics and kickboxing in quite polluted air... cfm KO after the workout... aiyah, me too desperate for the freebies lor... with a small price of coz... =)Am njoying the SOP songs as i'm writting this blog.

Life has been rather tensed up this week, after the workload increased until i'm abt to sink... hardy got chance to sit down and njoyed myself focusing on other things as well... aiyah... shall take this time to relax from work, though knew very well still got work waiting for me.. Oops...
Like reading a book, listening to music, playing guitar... Oh ya, i missed playing the guitar... hopes my skill still there!!! missed blast too... today's class... i wont be able to kick and punch at the real punching pad... quite tiring, but it at least helps me to ventilate a bit... hehe.. shall do a bit of reading of books which i dropped since poly days... at least helps me next year if the thought will to become a reality... but quite praying and seeking God for...

Too tired to continue. SHall continue in another day.