A Time to Reflect with Thanksgiving.

Have a quite relaxing Chinese New Year celebration with my family to my relative's place for CNY visitation this year... Last year we missed it and this year it clashes with Sunday... as most of my relatives going to church in the morning, we started our visitation at our "Big Uncle" - Teochew translated into English.... hope translates correctly? hehe... after which we suppose to proceed to another house which at Boon Keng.... from clementi to Boon Keng... quite a distance, plus it's already very late.... my dad decides not to go... and my sis's going to her boyf's aunt place for visitation... she has a packed CNY with visits to her boyfriend's relatives' place. Guess with every passing each CNY, mine getting more stressful... =( my dad's side 3 unmarried cousins going to marry this year back to back... =( i'm going to SDU for help if seriously i cannot get myself attached by year end... haha... (just joking lah) one of my cousins met her wife-to-be during at the SDU outing... so.... hmmm....

Hmmm, we also go around house visitation with my Hope friends.... and it wasn't as packed as before.... more time spent in the individual home, with 2 of "virtual tour-guiding". hehe... learnt a lot.... it actually quite helpful as i will be going for a "long" holiday during the middle of the year... wow.... saw B's trip actually spurs me to look forward... esp the activity which requires both the experienced trainers and us (paying passenger) to run and jump off the cliff and flying around the sky with a little "unengine plane" to the green pasture below... wow .... not cheap though... but i cannot imagine the breeze brushing across my face and the whole earth under my feet... and sliding onto the ground on our bellies.... haha.... guess i will need to save more liao for those "exp" exciting activity.... wow... cannot imagine... =P another thing i wanna try is white-water rafting... ever since i came back from SP trip... it's must do thing.... hehe... hmmm, maybe a trekking expedition to Nepal? something that's on my mind since poly days.... going to do 1 thing 1st..... Oh, am so excited man....

This year, managed to spend quality time with my parents as i got the whole week off... playing mahjong with my parents and my sister.... we just played wherever our priorities dun clashed.... hmmm, honing of my mahjong skills as i played with my dad and mum whose skills really good.... my sis also not bad... Time i also wasted lazing around the house just watching VCDs, TV including the Taiwanese variety shows.... and doing BSF lessons.... surfing internet, played online games such as Pangya, Audition and sleeping in unearthly hours... haha....and playing mahjong by myself.... =P

Just now, i went to Vivocity alone to window-shopping and also to watch Jack Neo's latest movie... "Just follow Law".... wow, though the way Jack directs is quite similar to his past few projects.... this time round, i should say it quite daring of him to put in few scenes that really teases the way our g. works... shall not revealed too much lest i got into trouble for nothing... hehe...esp the CCTV thing... shall shared if there's opportunities.... keke... having worked w a sb organisation, i really can agreed with what the movie is showing... guess u must be either working in or with, then you will be able to agree... esp the budgeting and approval thing and the taiji of the responsibilities until the work geena slowed down to snail speed pace or stagnant at all or no progress.... etc Always can sense Jack wanted use the charactor to share with us the important of relationships and this time, i guess that after "lead actor's character" and "lead actress Wong's character" lost something, then they would deeply wanted back what they have lost. I would feel that sometimes, i myself also guilty of the doings that the female lead have done, i should have done better actually.... knowing but not doing!!! Aiyah.... I can never forget the humor Jack would always injected into his productions... and this time, he poked fun on the politics and the exchange of the 2 souls in a very freak car accident and then the way they behaved after their souls exchange places... Quite freak man, can u imagine 2 cars can fell off a tall highway, without any explosions with the direct impact to the car engine and the drivers can come out with a little injuries???... anyway... it's just a movie... hehe... some of the scenes seriously i'm not very comfortable.... esp when they showered together and hmmm... ??? But big applause to the lead actor and actress Gumit Singh and Fann Wong for their courageous andf humorous acting.... Recommended must watch this movie!!!! =D
Guess, sometimes doing something alone gave me the quietness i needed in the midst of the noises around me... And i think i saw kl but just couldn't recognized her... well, some people looks similar, i guess!!!

Yesterday, me and one of my colek went for a short Karaoke session at one of the KTV at Orchard.... we have a fun time, singing out our lungs.... we also sang duet songs.... haha... we have quite a good chemistry at the songs.... well, i guess i have heard and learned many new songs... then we went to Far East Plaza to do some window-shopping and i have to rush down to another iv at N.S. after that. Tnr going to rest at home... after which at night, going back church, which something i have been postponing until now.

Well, 3 more days of rest before i have to start work next week... Not going to be easy since i have been resting for 11 days liao... hehe...

Guess this year when i go around doing the CNY visitations, i wont be able to eat many Chinese New year goodies like Bak Gua, Chun Juan etc.... coz i'm down with fever and cold... *Sneeze* Okie, i shall rest more since tmr it's still cny eve, still got time to recover... hehe.... I have plenty of chances to rest until 25Feb since next week, cause my company is closed for 1 week for the Chinese New Year... (this year very special year coz we never have such practises - close the whole office for a solid week... at the expense of our annual leave). aiyah

Yesterday, i went to Sentosa to celebrate my birthday.... Took a lot of photos especially at the different beaches and tried the "luge" again.... This time round, i bought the 2 plus 1 free ride.... well, quite scary to have the liftchair up and down for 3 times.... 1st time i was so scared that i didnt dare to take the camera out until abt halfway of the ride i took out and took some scenery... 2nd and 3rd time, i really enjoyed the ride and the sea breeze and lotsa of nice photo shots.... 1st luge ride, i literally zoom all the way to the bottom of the slope while e 2nd and 3rd, i luge down slower, allowing people to bypass me... guess i blow off my pockets a bit yesterday but only once a year.... so i think should be okie mah.... got 2 new towers at "the most Southern of Asia". Well, dunno whether it's really true but this what Sentosa claimed to be lah....

Today, drop by the project site which i'm still working and get some purchases.... i looked back with thanksgiving heart yet tingled with a bit of sadness, a sense of achievement (maybe), a sense of completed work.... maybe it's the satisfaction i got on seeing the whole project completed... Thoughout the whole project (for me, i join in halfway), i have many sweet memories over at the site - memories of site valuations with boss and the m.c., s.c., lunch together and sharing of her experiences as a SQS and laughter.. not forgetting attend the site/consultant meetings. As i walked about the whole site, i was filled with sadness... guess i still have not forgive myself for doing many things that hurt her. If i could turn back the clock, i will restrained myself more and said less hurtful words.... well, if i could.... so no point harping on it anyway. Move on man!!! "The fear of the LORD is the beginning of wisdom, and the knowledge of the Holy One is understanding." Proverbs 9:10. How true is it? The wisdom to do the right thing at the right time.....

Oh ya, i met the head of the division during the morning iv... We have ever worked together in another small project of that organization... Oops... he recognized me leh....... i mean if he leaks out to my boss, den maybe i have to spend my whole day at boss's room explaining myself Y???... well, my boss didn't know.... but....Am excited during the iv, cause of the many opportunities over there.... and it's where i majored in school and so i look forward with excitement to hear the news (good or bad news whatever). Though the good news may come with a "price". Well, i will share more when selected... Seems i never have a opened door in this direction before and i kept banging into that door... n i when i finally gave up 放开手时，神就把门打开 ..... and now that's door which i thought was tightly shutted, came with opportunities from small and big companies. Okay, enuff of my "letting it out"

Tomorrow is the Chinese New Year Eve.... Let me wish everyone：
新年快乐。

For my 1st time at my current, my coleks celebrated my birthday and the other from C.D dept for both of us... My team dun celebrate birthdays, so i'm sort of used to celebrating with cell pp, or sometimes ch or with my close frens/buddies...

But today, i have quite a pleasant surprise from my lunch kakis... had a short birdday celebration at the C.D dept with the C.D dept coleks... Ya, got a rude shock when a colek called and ask me to C.D dept... hmmm, thought something serious going to happen... Oops... quite bad leh... so quite walking pass my colek's partitions, saw them suspiciously hanging around someone's desk and hmmm, what they up to... and when i reached the C.D dept, my lunch kakis came from behind and with a cake... so nice and thoughtful of them to celebrate S and my birthday since we only few days apart... Anyway, i'm so touched... this year, my bd has been filled with surprises... 3 dear frens i know, wanted to celebrate with me at the same day itself... felt quite bad when i have to tell them that i have already got an appointment already... hopefully i can make up to them even celebrating after my bd... =P

Am thankful to reach another mark of my life and i'm looking forward a brand new year of exciting adventure with the Lord.

Got really pissed by the issistence of the blogger to force me to switch to use the new type of blogger... hmmm, not much difference as only i can put in as many other people's blog link to mine at the "home page"... Anyway, i just switched over without any mishap... hehe... Heard that the new blogger would be more user-friendly but apparently not really... Cause i still need to use the HTML to input any new items in... so doesnt help much to me a IT dinosaur... =P

Yesterday during the BSF lecture, got this new revelation that i could never think or even imagine... Indeed our class teacher was right, that Paul written pointed to our very sinful nature and as our actions and God's judgement... Even as i struggled to understand the deep teachings from Paul, i have also realised that my understanding of God's Word is very shallow... Like God has given the Jews the many various privilege of knowing God and His commands yet they did not make full use of these privilege God gave them and even mis-used such privileges and hence discredited God's name. Like Jews, God has given me spiritual gifts, give me the honor to know Him, have a personal relationship with my Saviour and to share the good news with my pre-believers.... yet the way i behaved, sometimes too discredit God... I'm also guilty of breaking the commandments God gave .... eg the 10 commandments.... Okay, guess i have broke almost every single one of them... Oops...

Well, it's like what L shared, when we look at God's Word is like looking at ourselves at the mirror... Sometimes, i just took a glance at the Word and then didnt look hard enough to realise the "horrible" person in the mirror is somebody else instead of me. When i look carefully then to my horror, the horrible person inside the mirror is me... Oh, I'm such a sinful person in the eyes of God... no matter how good i think i am or comparing with others who's slightly worse than me... Am i given such rights to judge or condemned... It's a very real warning to me that i'm am "building up God's wrath" if i continue in my sinful ways... In God's eyes, little sins that i committed will still be a snare to God cause God is holy and righteous and just. Rom 2:5 "But because of your stubbornness and unrepentant heart, you are storing God's wrath, when his righteous judgement is revealed" In Rom 2:1-4 - I realised that at times, when i will think that i'm self-righteous and when people that's slightly worse than me, i would judge probably cast my "judgement" without realising that it's because of God's kindness, richness of God's tolerence and patience that lead me to repentance. who am i to judge? recently, the past incidents have made me realised that i'm quite sinful after all, which i badly need a Saviour.

Another thing i learn that God is the one who dun looks at the outwardly or physical... but rather the inwardly ie.. the cirumcision of the heart...

Last week, while doing the daily questions, i kept bumping into difficult questions... was quite discouraged though... Not easy as the going gets tougher... A lot of the truths i need to look deeper and understand rather than reading it at the mere surface level. Gonna going to dig deeper in my life and discoveries of God and myself too... more horrible truths of myself will surface out as i continue to find out more of God thru the book of Romans.

This week gonna be rather short for me coz of the leave that i took before the Chinese New Year.....

If i took 3 days next week instead of this week, i would have 9days break from work... but since i took this week 2days, it would be fine with me.... as least i dun have to bring myself to face work for 4 days... hehe...

It's been quite a while since i went to Sentosa.... will be going there this thursday.... but???

BSF have started and i have been rather diligent on completing everyday questions....

Though the book of the Romans have been quite encouraging and exciting... but heard from others that the book is very challenging and difficult... shall look forward to studying of this book where Paul wrote his letters to the various churches in his time...

Just now, as i was preparing to bring in my washed clothes, i saw the clear dark skies, with tiny of stars shining throughout the skies... I have never always saw stars from my flat since i moved to this current place... until recently like last year... saw a couple of times.... While walking out of the church where i study BSF during the first lesson of the year, i saw and amazed by the stars... wow... never i ever always awed at the lights of the stars...

As i reflected, i remembered in the Romans 1:19-20. God has revealed Himself - His eternal power and divine nature through the creations, so every mankind should know God but they never glorified God nor gave thanks to Him. Oh gosh, i mean we have been made by God and God have left something behind for us to know Him and that vacuum can never be replaced by any other things yet, man made for themselves idols and images out from human and animals... so in the end, we never gave thanks to God for what He has created us and our surroundings... As BSF termed it as a general revelation... so thru nature, we knew that that's a creator who have created the whole universe and that we should worship the creator... instead what happened??? man claims to be wise, exhange the glory of God and create images that looks like mortal man, animals, birds, reptiles.

In the book of Romans, thru Paul's letter will revealed to us how sinful we are and the many truths that we may have denied or suppressed in our hearts... and we really need the saving grace of God and His Salvation plan for all mankind. It will be definitely a wake-up call and the Truth staring straight in front of us for both christians and the many unsaved. Til the next BSF, i will share more in my next sharing. =)

Yesterday we had a really wonderful time gathering at D & S's place for our dance ministry gathering.... our dance ministry is growing and we got 3 potential dancers... wow!!! i'm personally looking forward to our dance this coming Easter. Hmmm, God must be very pleased with the dance that i will be offering to Him. hehe.... Oh ya, we have a great feast coming from few good cook, AT, S, GW... plus a few packin nice food.... i also helped out at the preparation of Laksa... haha... though helped out in a very portion only!!! am on the route of learning fantastic laksa from AT. haha....have a nice fellowship with the rest of the dancers and being prayed for!!! Oh... before i forget, i will remember to download and sent our gathering photo to everyone ASAP.

Eh, on Friday... i took a half day leave with my sister and went shopping for the coming Chinese New Year stuffs (like new year clothing etc)... quite last minute... i only applied leave on thursday night!!! bought quite few new clothes... including a new skirt and 2 blouse, a pair of new shoe and .... i forgot liao... haha... anyway, i will strived to put on skirt to church and put on my recently got contact lenses.... so hmmm.... a new image.... =) den i went to CF for 1 hr excerise....

Oh ya, today i missed church today... Coz i wasnt around as i was on another Island with a fren... wow.... i really enjoyed myself amazed by God's creation.... and fellowship with my fren.... Kusu Island wasnt scary as i thought so.... well, only a very small portion taken up by the temple and the rest was simply nature.... Have download the pic... so it's still at my camera memory card. was tired but truly, i enjoyed myself.... and so is my fren... Though i wanted to celebrate my fren's birthday but we didnt have the chance.... shall continue next time.... =)