A Time to Reflect with Thanksgiving.

Today's boss last day... and guess we are not feeling any good... coz he's quite well like by people in our company and his working partners but anyway, we have been informed many months ago... so the impact wasnt that great.. but anyway, now we are "boss"less... am still waiting for 1/ of our colek to rise up to the occasion... and the person is none than....????? hehe... Only God knows abt it.. but observant people will roughly can guess who's that person!!!

and counting down to end of the week and enjoying the "less-stressful" & "tight-"deadline" week!!! =)

Yo, i have already finished which required tmr to finish and i'm now at home shaking leg and watching channel 8... hehe.. but next week Monday morning, we will have to rush like mad to finish work by afternoon at our client's place... so that we can have the iv after lunch...

anyway... shall enjoyed myself this weekend... since last weekend burned... =)

Hmmmm, this weekend though quite tiring, but i managed to squeeze in time to watch 2 movies - Harry Potter & the Order of Phoenix and The Simpsons Movie. I watched Harry Potter with Cindy and her family yesterday morning, while i watched Simpson with the Hope people after church today... Watched 2 funny movies this weekend, quite sufficient to help me forgets my work stress!!!
Esp the Harry Potter, i enjoyed quite a lot... esp the "lao wu puao" trying to gain control of the school and how she tries to increase her portfolio and influence in school, by getting rid of the "unwanted" important people and limiting her student's learning curve (end up the kids have to secretly trained themselves).. but her way of dealing with people sometimes is really "cruel"... [Sounds familar??? - Esp most of us working in corporate world would fully agree]- haha!!! Okay, hopefully next sat wont have to work so that i can join the guys for "trekking". hehe!!!

Phew, i managed to finish up putting in the "CD" part of the Contract preparation yesterday... after watching Harry potter with Cindy!!! and hmmm, i dun know if i did the right thing by not doing according to what my senior KT wants... actually, we have a disagreement on wants to follow to his 1 of his project but it was rather not according to the office practices... but he insisted on doing his way and no matter how i reasoned with him, he still insisted following with his project... I'm almost at my wits ends NOW...

Hmmm, actually working with the other senior maybe is much better as i was given room to roam my creativity... though i have to bear the consequences myself if anything gone wrong!!! but at least i learned maybe much more if my senior would always instruct me to do his way... maybe it's good but not too extreme!!!

Okay, i'm not the person who will follow instructions "blindly" and after i checked with quite a number of project, none does it that way... when i told him what i have found, guess what he said... no matter how many findings i have find, he said his decision is final and he WANT his way to be done!!! Okay, i knew when this is to be submitted to my DD, it will be bounced back to KT and guess he will have to re-do (and i will be the one re-doing)... Den when he genna get scolded, i will be end up being "scrapped" by him!!! so learn this painful lesson before but yet how to convince him that his way of doing is not very right... 1stly, the entire procedure is Oops and the way of writing is not according to the office's practices!!! Aiyah, this is not the first time he wants HIS way to be done... (i guess he's not willing to be open to suggestions for improvements) and he always said that my suggestion is good but sorry, he wanted his method of doing things his way... =S

Am quite stressed up... how to convince him to changed his method before we have to end up doing double work... Okay, not that i'm much experienced working in my current company than he is... but having assisted in my past few projects administrations, i have some idea of doing things according to "law". Okay, enuff of my letting go of my fustrations!!!

1st time trekking at Bukit Timah hill and it was quite sunny just as get started at the foot of the hill... Though it was as easy the last time i conquered bukit timah hill few years ago.. this time round, i followed them as they took a different route (far more adventurous and difficult than the simple route)... as we walked inside the forest, we have to took big and tiring steps... esp the high and narrow steps.... which is impossible to climb like normal steps... and we met a steep cliff... thank God got bro Vin there to help us conquered that part... if not cannot imagine how can we by our own strength pulled ourselves up to the next level...

any way, as we were on our way back, it started to drizzle a bit then followed by a huge downpour... and we are stucked in between the peak and the foot of the hill...as the heavy rain pour on our poor bodies with no mercy... we continued to walk down even though we walked past a shelter... eh, by the time we reached the foot of the hill, we were totally drenched from head to toe, with our shoes well-watered with the rainwater... so funny, one of the funny bro lamented that his trekking shoes is water-proofed and the water cannot escape... mine is not so quite shiocked as can literally feel the rainwater running from my head to the sole of the feet and out of the shoe... quite a adventurous saturday with the guys... next time, i will self-invite again... haha...

which after that when i reached home to change for our dance gathering, realised that my bag is not water-proofed... and the whole bag is super damp... which include a book which a dear sister lend to me.. okay, die liao!!! how am i going to return the book to her and explain to her how i'm such a bad steward... spolit her book while in my procession... as much as i wanted to talk to her... i found no courage... Oh God, may Your Wisdom helped me to approached this sister... esp i could feel that she's angry with me over certain issues?? or was i too sensitive?? i could feel that she's offended but i din know why? i wanted to solve with her but how to??? i'm a person who doesnt like to see certain things undone/remain unresolved... but this issue have been bothering me...as much as i wanted to push it aside... it keep coming back... today as i was reading this verse... it came as a gentle reminder that God doesnt want us to worship Him when we knew a brother has something against us... (Matt 5:23) Oh gosh, i simply too prideful to make the first move... that's why, the issue have been left hanging like that lor... hmmmm, i guess if i dun make the first move, it will always be left that... still wondering how my sister got offended??? Esp when things goes in the way i most din expected... i admited that i was a bit hurt in the way she approached that issue... whose fault??? mine??? i mean if i will to be her, i would approached in a tranparency way... but anyway, i have to trust God that He has His perfect way... well... be patient, complain less and be more focused!!! Knowing very well that only God will be my solid rock that will never shakes... i have to be that wise builder lor...

Oh, before i forgets, today our AD treated us to a delicious dinner at one of the "organic" restaurant behind our office... after our whole team treated him to a "Hongkong style" restuarant last week for his BD... it will be his last treat to all of us... since he will be leaving us very soon... and i have already guess correctly who will be our new AD... heard that this new guy's tough guy ler... I'm quite sad that he's leaving us so soon... i mean though he's seems quite a fiece guy... but after working with him... i find him quite a nice guy after all.. it's the guy that we know after working with him for sometime, beyond his "fiece look" face. Dun know if i will break down in tears on his last day... but right now, i have already felt that sense of "missing" him... I have learned quite a lot of things from him especially working with him on the warehse project... esp how to write a properly constructed letters... (he's a mastery that).

i will missed working with him ( even though the duration i worked under him is quite short, but the impact that he had in very one of our lives is significant)-i guess. As what he said today, i will take this very opportunity to learn as much as i can at my current company)... though it maybe a short duration???

I'm quite thankful that for no whatever reasons why i hold back that letter and stayed on for another 4mths (counting from my "last" day til now... working under so many PQS (from CL-AL-ST-KT)... i'm thankful to be able to work with these very experienced PQS esp CL & ST... Personally, i'm quite appreciated how ST has guided me and explained her way of doing things to me... of course, i have learned a lot from her... Guess she's one of the most patient PQS and taught me the most... it's something that i should give thanks to God for that period under her guidance!!! =)

On the positive note, i guess God will always walk ahead of me... pathing out His plan for me and i have to stay focused on Jesus... A verse appear to me few times during my BSF, quiet time... Okay, i'm too scared to pray about it... yet, i guess God is trying to speak to me about this... but how??? Or maybe it not?? i need to clear off my mind first!!!

Just now during lunch, both me and few of my team-mates went out for a early lunch and met a huge storm and oops... we were drenched top to toe... eseehhhh... so damp... esp my "coat" which i wear it out... after a while, the rain stopped and okay... if we stepped out office building not so early, then we wont be caught in the heavy rain!!! Quite sianz man... if only we not so siasu to rush out of the building immediately... Oops... but quite a adventure indeed... trying to keep as dry as possible..... using the long routes, squeezing into tight corners etc... but anyway, we ended up at a dead end!!!

Back at work, my time is not as tight as last few weeks and i'm have more time for breathing space... went to church area to take the BSF notes from my BSF leader's house... and was contemplating going to WIN session but then i decided not to... cause i was a bit too late by then...

so end up, i went home to rest instead... =)

Something to rumble about!!! Amosphere at work is definitely at quite "dangerous" level... everyone seems so stressed up with the pending work and i'm so happless on how to face work positively.... Okay, dun know how to say but... guess i have to learn to work "effectively" in such a stressful environment!!! and how to do "crappy work"!!! =(

With so many exciting testimonies of being encounter with the LORD during our worship item... one song strikes me too.... which is the chinese song.... though it's lyrics are pretty easy and simple.... God still speaks in such a simple way thru songs, His Spirit, His Word etc...
Personally, i got touch and gently reminded of how God will find joy in my life.... and it's my personal conviction to strive to be like the person as decribed in the song....

愿意爱你。

It's become a song which i like it a lot... not because of the nice songs or music but rather the very personal conviction from that person when he/she wrote the songs.... many have been also touched by God that day... Through the many practises (double the portion of practices before) due to the fact it's our church very special occasion... We are indeed very blessed to have E.C. to train us this time round instead of Mel, the way she cherograph the dance steps are very different from our previous songs/dance items and the way she throw fore her ideas and how she wants us to improve individually in our own parts. though sometimes she sounds like a "lion" ready to "eat" us up.... but i think it's rather her passion of reaching to higher level (out of our comfort zone" and wanting us to have that special "Spiritual Encounter" with God during our dance practise and even when we are up on the stage... Hmmm, i'm quite thankful for her "teaching" and guiding us....

Oh yes, serving in the dance ministry helps me change in some way.... and something tiny (which i myself dun noe) that sparks out of me is something i cannot do it on my own... rather it's God that change!!! Looking forward in the encounterance with God along the way....

Just got news from my boss after his meeting that we have to rush out the tender questionaires and the report out by today... Oh no, have to burn away my free evening time AGAIN!!! =( where's my freedom?).... wanted to go jogging today after work since our report is almost done!!! with the coming of tender Questionaires... aiyah.... no choice have to stay back until very late today..... This week with the exception of Monday which i went to BSF class despite my superior "gumbling", other than that i have been working until 10plus.... =( Seriously sometimes i feel so tired that going to work can be a chore.... if only i can leave office on the dot but unlikely happens until next week... which probably i can have a short week break before the Tender Interview....

Guess all my team-mates are quite heavy-laddened with lotsa of work with limited manpower and time to finish up our urgent tasks on hand... everyone work until the face "change color".... esp the "fresh and young" ones who have little experience or fresh from school... our poor and only SEQS have to carry all the extra burdens on her shoulders with little help being rendered to her... Okay, am quite empthy on her but my help sometimes can be quite limited... =( With the on-going re-structuring of the company, we can anticipated more staff movement within teams being shuffled... and with me no exception....

shall continue my rumbling after work today!!!

Phew!!! SO tired.... have maximised my body energy... think can exercise equivalent to going to gym for 1/2hr... esp carrying the super heavy load of boxes of files and correspondences to my new seat location... (Not just my own boxes, but some of my team-mates as well) our whole office have a major renovation and all the staffs are now seated with their respective teams unlike where too many staffs are scattered all over the whole office... now everyone in office sit together in a open concept with the ADs, and DD... cannot imagine when i start work this coming Monday, my AD is sitting right behind me!!! Okay, quite stressed especially now.... bosses can see our actions in our 8hrs plus plus plus plus plus!!! guess how long we often r in the office... =(

Anyway, just was searching for new ideas for ice-breaker game for cell later... found something interesting... haha... hope my cell people will like the game... it's called "Air Soccer".... Soccer i believe everyone should know about this game... esp people loves to "idolised" handsome soccer players like Beckham, some Italian soccer players... eh, not so good players yet people can idolised them madly... aiyah!!! Oops... O.O.P. this game is very simple... like playing table soccer (using handles/sticks) to score goal... This game as we can guess lah... air mah!!! use our breathe to score goal... wonder is my cell level still enjoyed this game... though personally i used to like this game when i played during poly days with the Navigators... haha... i mean now we are at the different stage of life and most prob they wasnt keen as during their uni period or my poly days donkey years ago!!!

(After cell)
Guess my cell-mates enjoyed for a while... blowing air and salvia at each other esp WB... haha... and a player flouting rules by blocking the "ball" with her hands. We had a "refleshing" discussion... sounds very familiar with the verses... and it's seriously i have to put it to my personal prayer and ask God for a clearer directions... Okay... shall go and catch some rest... tmr morning got my cousin's church's wedding & afternoon got the last dance rehearsal/full dress rehearsal before the BIG day on Sunday. Super stressed sia!!!