A Time to Reflect with Thanksgiving.

Went to work with a tired mind and body, due to lack of rest at night. Reached home yesterday late at night from JB. Was quite apprehensive abt stepping into office, but praying to God, then i stepped into office knowing God is in ctrl. Had pretty short day, cause i was supposed to have a half day induction coz and medical check-up but due to mixed up, i ended up having to do filing which can be quite boring. I was so tired that while doing, i fell asleep few times, but my direct bosses were not in office. Cant imagine the sight of their faces if they saw me "eating snakes" unintentionally. haha...

Actually quite privilage to be able to work in this team, got 2 really helpful colleagues went out of their way to help me when i'm lost... and they kept assurring me not to be too worried... do i look worried? but, lotsa of things to digest for today. But more will come tomorrow!!! :(

today met up a lot of my ex-classmates, ex-colleagues and friends working there and they were a bit shocked when they saw me as i wasnt major in that subject in my fy. Hmmm, sort like having a mini class gathering... :) tmr morning i will have a inductn and prepared myself for more things to put in my memory!! okay, hv to get bk into my lecture notes to catch up. Was looking at one of the doc, feel like i'm a alien to the words. (for those who never study this course b4, a lot of terms used will be in short-hand).. have to refreshed myself... hehe.... :)

Tomorrow will be my last day of work with C at CB, and quite sad have to leave this organisation which i have sort of bonded with even though i worked there for abt a mth plus, the friendships there, free shows and all the jokes etc...i will missed them all. with that kind of mood, i wasnt sure am i really for the camp. but who knows who will happen, i mean anything can happen? :)

Btw, i will bringing a lorry of books to retreat to prep myself for the new challegues ahead in my new career with DLS... haha...paiseh, no time to read during the past weeks because of tired... Work gets esp pressurised during this week, as more resposibilties will be on me, as TPZ & ORL are running. So as being the only person in the org who knows how to use the system, everything was being "taiji" to me, was getting a bit wear down. But what really stressed me is the mistakes i make, but thank God, so far none yet. i mean haven got noticed by any users or superiors... :) haha, i noticed them myself.. many instances, if i keyed in the wrong L and the user cannot get in, i wld be in big shit, coz they will email to all the relevant dept heads to complain. and it's happens a lot of times but fortunately none have fell on me yet. But yet, i think i will miss the stress as well...I'm should be thankful to have the chance to work in such org where every day is full of unexpected happenings...haha.. ;p

Okay, enuff of my complains...

Thought that i was late when i reach PL at abt 7.40pm, only to see Grace and Ray doing on the stage. Phew...and the rest was not even there....when finally everyone was there, we had our warm up exercise and proceeding to practise on our own roles. As i was 1 of the wise men, i hv to make it sound like 1, though turns out to be quite funny. Anyway, my voice sounds funny.. :p First time, practising on knees and after getting up and kneeling down, i can hear my knees starts to make noises... even with the knee support on the floor. Oh no, how i'm going to survive the whole show, actually not the whole show, but til the last part? haha.... Was sad to hear Hz was sick and unable to join us today, pp ard me get sickly recently. Hope that God will heal her soon and that she's able to go to the ch camp. Btw hz, thanks for the archive thing, now know how to keep my blog look short and sweet. :)

normally at this time, i will be in bed by now. But too tempted to write down my thoughts... :) Had a long and boring, yet heart-breaking experiences, had a small conflict with supervisor at work today, but fortunately, it didnt escalated to much extent but thank God for the supervisor didnt make much noise. Had this user who threatened to complain to our big boss if we cannot help him settle a problem with the door b4 lunch. So what if he's a VP, cant he be more understanding? Am thankful tt i'm able to help him settle, and he didnt make any noise after tt.very min, work on my desk keep piling up and i have to do it alone w/o my supervisor's help becoz the whole process can be very complicated. But i finished before i left office for PL. :)

Inside the NEL train, met a Nav mate whom i never talked to since poly days and glad to see her well(SPIES) and still worshipping in her church at Adam Rd. Thank God for such a faithful sister. it's great to see her again. :) since i lost contact with so many basic in SP Nav after graduation.

I was introduced to this book by a F.T worker in SP Nav. when he mentioned abt his expeiences working with the youths in his ch, so he brought up this book. Was so amazed by what he shared, i decided to purchase 1 as well.
As i read this book, i realised what are my love languages, ie how do i feel loved and expressing love to others. In the book, the writer wrote there's 5 love ways of expressing our love.
1) Words of affirmation
2) Physical touch
3) Quality time
4) Acts of service
5) Gifts
thought everyone of us may feel loved or express love differently. but to different pp, may be different at even the same situation. But our love tank will never be filled up by human efforts as we are fallen creatures, Only God can fill up our love tank. Though sometimes, i may felt so unloved. But our last CG, God says that he loved up so much that he took pains just to create us so that we can enjoy him. so when i feel loved the most? actually i happened to drop by M's blog thru hz's blog. Happened tt she wrote oso on love languages, the few questions that we shd ask ourselves to sort of test what's our love L. i feel loved the least is when i received gifts. to me, gifts are just gifts.Gifts may get spoilt/lost but the time spent wont be. :) i enjoyed spending quality time when i can get to have a in depth sharing rather than receiving gifts. i always feel so loved when been hugged(physical touch).
I grew up with an almost empty love tank, and my parents dont expressed love so physically or verbally. sometimes it very hard for me to understand God's love, God's unconditional love. Used to thought that love is conditional, the head knowledge sometimes just cant get inside of me. That's all for today, sorry guys, my England had yet improved at all even though so many times of postings.

Just came back from a dinner with J, had a wonderful time with her, chitting chatting and did some catching up stuff. Am thankful for the friendship that had been built even though i got to know her when she first joined our agency early this year. After got to know her, i think i was really blessed by her, her encouragements, comforting words, lot of very good advices, counsel, her sensitivity and lots more helps, and of coz offering of tissue papers which links to her sensitivity... :) even though times in P was sometimes not that rosy but every time when i fell or too stressed up, it was always that she's on my mind to talk to even though end up, i became the listening party. She's so positive about life that her attitude always spurs me on when i'm down.
AS usual, today, was yet again blessed by her, was troubled by things on my mind, and yet again, after talking to her, my soul was been lifted up by her experience. Yesterday went to help out in her event, actually initially wanted to do some catching up with her after that, but seems she's so busy, i decided to do it another time. Was quite surprised when she called me this afternoon while on the way to the Frisbee game.

Back to today,had a long day since i slept late last night and had a strange dream, so end up i was pretty tired the whole day. Attended svc in the morning, then had some "catch up" for the roles for e Xmas party. Had lunch with the rest of them, before heading bk to ch for the puppetry practise. It was back to the memorizing of the scripts and doing the actual practise. and finally the Ultimate Frisbee game, was wearing the sandals, was quite restricted from running too fast and missed a couple of opportunity goals. Feel quite bad abt it. :( hopefull when i got my pair of shoes, i will get back to action again and hopefully my skills get better. :) feel quite stagnant in catching and throwing. But utlimately, it boils down to 1 thing. it's my confidence. Hopefully, that will pick up too with more practise.
As i was writting this, was just reminded of a book i read few years ago, it's called 5 love languages. Shall write in next time. Blog gets longer each time.

Had wanted to blog yesterday night, but the minute i stepped into my room, the first thought was not to switch on the pc, but into my bed. so end up in my bed and before i knew it, i was fast asleep. Had too much thoughts but it seems like i have got nothin to say now. first time in my blogging experience, having to experience a mental "blog"..Oops accidentally, i hv copied it from someone's blog. :p

Actually i was supposed to go for the carolling practise yesterday but TBL my ex-CGL sms to us saying wanna have a "hens" party for PS whose wedding is this coming this saturday. Finally got the chance to meet up together as a CG again after so long. :)Had dinner togther at O.D. at the wheelock pl at Orchard and had a good fellowship together. when i found out that almost all of them wont be gg to the ch retreat, my heart really dropped to the floor and the first thought was: Oh no, maybe i shouldnt have go to the camp, PS's wedding only once in a lifetime but camp is..... then me and g have a "common understanding"...guess it will be a secret btw me and g unless she spills it out. Just a tot only, but unlikely to execute it.

Today, i woke up pretty early to help out an ex-colek's Wicare's carnival cum some raising funds prog etc... i also dun know what to expect or see when i reach there, just that i knew that i have promised her that i will be there. Opps!!! Met up with few of my ex-colek when i reached there, had a short catch up with one of the coleks but the rest is hi & bye thing. Was quite tired throughout the event, was struggling to even do the simple calculations. Guess i must have left my brains back at home and forgot to bring it out today. haha... :)

afterwards, an ex-colek also dropped by and she got herself quite a number of good things, and we left together as she said she wanna buy more Xmas gifts, had dinner with her near her pl and times really flies. B4 we knew it, she's going to her appt when we dont even had the time to shop. Continued with our shopping until the shops close before heading home.

It's going to be end of the year soon, and it's time for me to start my reflection of how my past 1 year and looking forward to another year. Oh my goodness, the year is almost coming to an end, just like that. As i ponder over what had happened, i am thinking: is there any thing that i can thank God for for this year? Times passes so fast, and yet it seems like i have achieve nothin this year but wait... b4 i came to a conclusion, wait til i have done with my thoughts and self-reflection. :p

I have received the L.O.A from DLS yesterday when i reach home just to watch the final episode of the Spore Idol. intially excited, but thoughts soon fill up my mind like: oops, it's been more than 1 year since i take up the scale rule and oops, i have sort of forgotten my stuffs and ..... never mind, i figured that i have to dig out all my lecture notes and stuffs to refresh my memory. Guess that those who are going to the camp will most prop see me walking ard with notes in my hand. :) Okay, back to the spore Idol, for the first time, i sat down to watch the whole programme instead listening to only few parts. For me, a layman, i wont want to give much comments and i dont think i have the substance to give.. haha, but anyway overall, i feel Fik was more conservative with his choice of songs while Sly was more adventurous with his even though doesnt helped him much. for the first time in the whole season, i called in to give my support even though my calls doesnt helped sly to win.

today quite happening today in my office and as i wasnt quite involved in the ops. I have sort of having to see free shows and i found out myself that actually i'm quite a KPO person. as i was observing the whole process, i realised that i'm interested to see how a person will react in some situations or others may react differently.... anyway, i figured that it may be part of human nature. was planning to go to N.C.C for B.S today but worked OT today due to an unexpected item popped up at the last min after i switched off my p.c for the day and i hv to stay back to complete. when i'm done, it was pouring outside and i hv no umbrella with me so end up shopping inside the M Mall with a colek. By the time, it stopped raining, it was already 7 plus. Headed home after that.
Have to start to count down to the new year and it will really makes me anxious to end the year with a big "Bang". Oops.. 29 days to go.....