Tuesday, January 24, 2006
Counting down...
Am counting down... hehe... =)
So looking forward esp after weeks of hard work... hmmm...
Have already had plans of what to do for the chinese new year... esp the next 3 days... yeah!!! It's so good to be able to sit down to write something in my blog and simply resting... it's just so good. Just managed to get my mind off from work and tear from my uncompleted work...
Yesterday attended my 1st lecture from BSF, was doing on the book of Genesis... Not very keen though to do on the book in the beginning, coz it's very dry book and never do even 1 complete QT on it.. shared the same sentiment with some of my discussion group pp... but when Lucy our class teacher said during the lecture, i was sort of changed my mind... instead of being so indifference to approaching the study of Genesis, i become excited to it... esp after reading the notes... was just being reminded of the times when i need God's assurance... remembered how God gave His Assurance and how He showed me thru my struggles, the times when He spoke personally during my daily lessons, how I was inspired to have hunger for His Word... though i may falter at times, God is still the God the same, yesterday and forever.. Heb 13:8 .. God is faithful....Lam 3:22-23.
Yo, last year mini-series, i was with JC's discussion group... though most of my discussion group mates wasnt in the same group as we all split to other groups... was quite excited to see many of my ex-disscussion mates before the singing session... met EW, n Chris (which happened we are also in the same discussion group for this year)... met up quite a number of them, some which i did not managed to catch up... (prob drop out of class, didnt attend the 1st lecture... etc) quite sad if they decide to drop out... they were the ones who got to hear some of my deepest struggles, n during times of fellowship, during sharing times... even to hear from some wise advice from my dear sisters... n my daring prayer "ASK"..... =P
i'm not saying that attending BSF is a "chicken feet" thing, it's requires a lot of commitment and discipline... Frankly speaking, i was quite mentally and physically tired after mths of doing daily lessons every day, setting averaging 1 hour per day to do the lesson questions... or alternatively do it on weekends and slog like "siao".. anyway, it's better to do it on the daily basis as i found out that by doing that i will have more time to think thru the questions and allow God to speak to me in my current situation. After the last lessons, i was simply too tired to do even half of the questions... couldnt imagine how my DL felt that day, when i couldnt answer to any questions she threw to me??
Anyway, since i have committed to another year of BSF, i have also made up my mind to be disciplined to do my lessons everyday. Okay, shall get back to my BSF lessons... Will be back blogging soon.
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So looking forward esp after weeks of hard work... hmmm...
Have already had plans of what to do for the chinese new year... esp the next 3 days... yeah!!! It's so good to be able to sit down to write something in my blog and simply resting... it's just so good. Just managed to get my mind off from work and tear from my uncompleted work...
Yesterday attended my 1st lecture from BSF, was doing on the book of Genesis... Not very keen though to do on the book in the beginning, coz it's very dry book and never do even 1 complete QT on it.. shared the same sentiment with some of my discussion group pp... but when Lucy our class teacher said during the lecture, i was sort of changed my mind... instead of being so indifference to approaching the study of Genesis, i become excited to it... esp after reading the notes... was just being reminded of the times when i need God's assurance... remembered how God gave His Assurance and how He showed me thru my struggles, the times when He spoke personally during my daily lessons, how I was inspired to have hunger for His Word... though i may falter at times, God is still the God the same, yesterday and forever.. Heb 13:8 .. God is faithful....Lam 3:22-23.
Yo, last year mini-series, i was with JC's discussion group... though most of my discussion group mates wasnt in the same group as we all split to other groups... was quite excited to see many of my ex-disscussion mates before the singing session... met EW, n Chris (which happened we are also in the same discussion group for this year)... met up quite a number of them, some which i did not managed to catch up... (prob drop out of class, didnt attend the 1st lecture... etc) quite sad if they decide to drop out... they were the ones who got to hear some of my deepest struggles, n during times of fellowship, during sharing times... even to hear from some wise advice from my dear sisters... n my daring prayer "ASK"..... =P
i'm not saying that attending BSF is a "chicken feet" thing, it's requires a lot of commitment and discipline... Frankly speaking, i was quite mentally and physically tired after mths of doing daily lessons every day, setting averaging 1 hour per day to do the lesson questions... or alternatively do it on weekends and slog like "siao".. anyway, it's better to do it on the daily basis as i found out that by doing that i will have more time to think thru the questions and allow God to speak to me in my current situation. After the last lessons, i was simply too tired to do even half of the questions... couldnt imagine how my DL felt that day, when i couldnt answer to any questions she threw to me??
Anyway, since i have committed to another year of BSF, i have also made up my mind to be disciplined to do my lessons everyday. Okay, shall get back to my BSF lessons... Will be back blogging soon.
Wednesday, January 18, 2006
10 more days to CNY.
Just a thought from my conversation with my PQS... she thought today was thursday when it's only wed... was suppose to have a VO meeting on thursday, huh when she told me that today got meeting, i got really panicky.... hmmm, not that i'm very well prepared, but happened so sudden... nearly got a heart attack because of her "mistake"... anyway, after laughing at her, i gave a comment...hmmm, she's only looking forward to weekend, but i'm more looking to CNY... she said that i'm more advanced than her... haha... it's now her turn to laugh at me...not that i enjoyed CNY, but more "grilling" from relatives.. i guess... =S... gathering each year at my "dao bo" place become lesser each year.. as more of my females cousins got married, except all my poor male cousins who's still single... guess their expectations is a bit high, or in their church, got more bros than sis... Never mind!!! enuff of my nonsenses...
Hmmm, still haven finishing shopping for CNY clothes.. still quite far from my targetted goal... shall do it this coming sat before it's CNY... aiyah, have to depend on myself this time ... guess with the divine help from Jesus(the best image consultant), will manage to get some decent ones.. =)
anyway, will have to work OT today for tmr meeting... if not will genna "killed/slaughtered" by supervisor if i cannot get work done on time... hmmm, happened only once in a blue moon... but very jialat one.... hmmm... anyway, wont give my PQS a chance... heh heh.... better dun laugh too early... shall get back to work before i wasted away my precious lunch time... shall continue blogging in some other time.
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Hmmm, still haven finishing shopping for CNY clothes.. still quite far from my targetted goal... shall do it this coming sat before it's CNY... aiyah, have to depend on myself this time ... guess with the divine help from Jesus(the best image consultant), will manage to get some decent ones.. =)
anyway, will have to work OT today for tmr meeting... if not will genna "killed/slaughtered" by supervisor if i cannot get work done on time... hmmm, happened only once in a blue moon... but very jialat one.... hmmm... anyway, wont give my PQS a chance... heh heh.... better dun laugh too early... shall get back to work before i wasted away my precious lunch time... shall continue blogging in some other time.
Friday, January 13, 2006
Errrgghhhh...
Hmmm, this morning got this thought of going for BS at NCC, was thinking ever since the last time i wanted to go BS, then got a msg from a sis... but... still i can managed to miss it today... aiyah... it's been quite some time since i last went to their weekly BS... a bit sayang today didnt go for the BS... with the starting of the fresh new year BSF (Bible Study Fellowship), i will have to be very disciplined again with my bs... with changing of new discussion group and pp, guess i have to learn to adapt quickly to my new group...
Oh, before i forgets,
wanna blog down my new year resolution for the year...
Spiritual life:-
1)Discipline in doing my daily BSF lessons + QT.
2)Prayer life:- praying for my parents n frens' salvation, praying for Hope n of coz praying for myself. (esp my future ahead)
3) Commitment to cell (esp when i'm doing something), open during sharing-time
4)Memorize scripture verses. (1 verse fornightly)... hmmm, a far cry from my poly days... but anyway... will try... no guarantee will stick to it. =P
5)at least 1 missionary trip (overseas).
Physical:-
1)Exerise 3 times a week (gym plus KB class+weekly frisbee)
2)Eat more veg and fruits every day. = Less MC.
Financial:- SECRET.. hehe.. i mean open secret..
Others:-
1) attend guitar class at B.music sch, n possible vocal training as well. =)
2)Read 1 spiritual/helps book every 3 mths (targeted)
3)Spend wisely & Save prudently...
4)Better control of my emotions/tempers (esp in workplace n hm)
Normally, i will try to stick as closely to my usual (SPIES F), but seems every year always out of target... this year try to be as realistic as possible. Hopefully can try to achieve this year... =) though some of the stuffs are quite very general (shall polished them/detailised them soon)
Ya, 2 more weeks, and it's CNY... every day, as i walks to take bus home, will walk pass all the CNY decos... this year was a bit special as they install really powerful beams that shoot to the sky... that night as i walking home after work and the sky is quite clear despite still drizzling, it's quite dark and only see 4 bms of lights into the darkness... it's really nice... a lot of shoppers also stopped in their tracks just to admire the magnificant light. wow... i was also got stucked there and end up missing my bus home. =(
Yo, still haven packed my room yet for CNY, or i should say spring-cleaning... aiyah, anyway set aside tmr for cleaning, if not.. the following sat, i will be out half a day at least to attend my sis's grad ceremony... she's offically now a uni grad. for me, i dun think/imagine of getting a degree now, maybe in a year or 2 when i saved sufficiently and comfortably for the whole course.... needs a good planning... think til now, i know what i want to do in the future, just that, i'm now in my comfort zone...
Will be back soon...
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Oh, before i forgets,
wanna blog down my new year resolution for the year...
Spiritual life:-
1)Discipline in doing my daily BSF lessons + QT.
2)Prayer life:- praying for my parents n frens' salvation, praying for Hope n of coz praying for myself. (esp my future ahead)
3) Commitment to cell (esp when i'm doing something), open during sharing-time
4)Memorize scripture verses. (1 verse fornightly)... hmmm, a far cry from my poly days... but anyway... will try... no guarantee will stick to it. =P
5)at least 1 missionary trip (overseas).
Physical:-
1)Exerise 3 times a week (gym plus KB class+weekly frisbee)
2)Eat more veg and fruits every day. = Less MC.
Financial:- SECRET.. hehe.. i mean open secret..
Others:-
1) attend guitar class at B.music sch, n possible vocal training as well. =)
2)Read 1 spiritual/helps book every 3 mths (targeted)
3)Spend wisely & Save prudently...
4)Better control of my emotions/tempers (esp in workplace n hm)
Normally, i will try to stick as closely to my usual (SPIES F), but seems every year always out of target... this year try to be as realistic as possible. Hopefully can try to achieve this year... =) though some of the stuffs are quite very general (shall polished them/detailised them soon)
Ya, 2 more weeks, and it's CNY... every day, as i walks to take bus home, will walk pass all the CNY decos... this year was a bit special as they install really powerful beams that shoot to the sky... that night as i walking home after work and the sky is quite clear despite still drizzling, it's quite dark and only see 4 bms of lights into the darkness... it's really nice... a lot of shoppers also stopped in their tracks just to admire the magnificant light. wow... i was also got stucked there and end up missing my bus home. =(
Yo, still haven packed my room yet for CNY, or i should say spring-cleaning... aiyah, anyway set aside tmr for cleaning, if not.. the following sat, i will be out half a day at least to attend my sis's grad ceremony... she's offically now a uni grad. for me, i dun think/imagine of getting a degree now, maybe in a year or 2 when i saved sufficiently and comfortably for the whole course.... needs a good planning... think til now, i know what i want to do in the future, just that, i'm now in my comfort zone...
Will be back soon...
Sunday, January 08, 2006
X's Wedding.
Just back from XnA's wedding's dinner banquet....
hmmm, first time attend a wedding dinner cum ROM... was suspose to start the ROM thing at 8.45pm but end up being delayed due to bad habits of some pp... but anyway, it's really long await for my dear friend's wedding... actually one of my close pp at P, she's really a very nice, encouraging friend... esp when times at P was bad, remembered how she encouraged me... time really flies... wow, she's so beautiful today with her gown, hmmm, in office, she will always wear very casual so didnt expect to see her like that lor... a few ex-coleks also commented that she's really pretty.... so tired, full yet very happy today... Oh before i forgets, she and her hubby moving to the North area (P area)... hmmm, that will gives me opportunity to disturb her esp after svc... hehe.. or even invite her to our 3rd Sunday svc.
Today met up some of the ex-coleks from P, (which includes my ex mgr).... thank God not at seated at the same table, if not bound to have explosions leh.. also didnt really got the chance to catch up with them.. it's like hi and bye thing... so left with me, R, M(our ex-telemarketeer) and our neighbour's secretary at the same table... R also from my agency have time to catch up a bit, but she's also very bz sms... aiyah... she's also left the dinner early too...
shall stop here... tmr still have to work... =(
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hmmm, first time attend a wedding dinner cum ROM... was suspose to start the ROM thing at 8.45pm but end up being delayed due to bad habits of some pp... but anyway, it's really long await for my dear friend's wedding... actually one of my close pp at P, she's really a very nice, encouraging friend... esp when times at P was bad, remembered how she encouraged me... time really flies... wow, she's so beautiful today with her gown, hmmm, in office, she will always wear very casual so didnt expect to see her like that lor... a few ex-coleks also commented that she's really pretty.... so tired, full yet very happy today... Oh before i forgets, she and her hubby moving to the North area (P area)... hmmm, that will gives me opportunity to disturb her esp after svc... hehe.. or even invite her to our 3rd Sunday svc.
Today met up some of the ex-coleks from P, (which includes my ex mgr).... thank God not at seated at the same table, if not bound to have explosions leh.. also didnt really got the chance to catch up with them.. it's like hi and bye thing... so left with me, R, M(our ex-telemarketeer) and our neighbour's secretary at the same table... R also from my agency have time to catch up a bit, but she's also very bz sms... aiyah... she's also left the dinner early too...
shall stop here... tmr still have to work... =(
Saturday, January 07, 2006
Random thoughts from CG yesterday.
Was reading on one of the books which i have bought more than 2 years ago, thru the recommendation by a sister from my cg in our Hope Camp. Titled "The Five Love Languages for Singles".... more than 5 finger years ago, similar a bro from SP Nav recommended that book too but though it was for teenagers... have bought 2 of such books and sitting in my book-shelf collecting dust... was clearing my room last week end and i happened/been prompted to have a look at this books out of so many other books... at first just glanced thru, but earlier of this week, began to read thru the contents and as well to discover my love languages... Ever since, i bought the book, have only read it once and quite glancing thru that kind of pattern... haha...
Hmmm, though my primary love language still around the same, but of course, changes took place like how i use the love languages to others... well, my cg have been a marvelleous place for me to learn to speak new love languages like words of affirmations, physical touch, acts of service, gifts and quality time... though i shd admit that i'm still learning to put them into practise... in church, my cgl has been a great example for me to put them into practise. of course i learn from her how to show love in diff aspects... i'm still in the process of learning... given that all the 5 love languages are quite a alien language to me... obviously, i'm haven got hold of any of them now... sad to say... hmmm, like what the author said, the first few pp i shd learn to put the 5 languages to practise is to bring it to my family members... say is beri easy, but put them into practise is another matter after all...
Even as i reflected what happened in the year 2005, it just dawned to me that i have been indeed quite blessed... not in S11 terms.... but in other areas... like what our ch motto is "Blessed to bless" dun really happen to me but..coming soon hopefully...hehe... i have to admit that i have lotsa of thanksgivings to thank God for... for what He has done in my life and how He has change my situations from beyond hope to some positive... though bad side, have few regrets... hope that i will learn from these few regrets... of course life is not a bed of roses... but i shd live my life as what Jesus promised that He came so that we can have a full and victorious christian life. Here are some of them:-
1)Work. (how God has change from hopelessness to hope in my current workplace... hmmm remembered how i used to complain to my cg mates last year...haha)now, with additional tasks to do and ample chances to learn.. not that i dun have chances at that pt of time but... relationships with coleks turned for better... esp blessed with a really patient supervisor.. hmmm, what can i ask for even better things to come?
2)Personal life (though sometimes i do struggle loving myself as what God loves me and how i shd love myself as a princess of God).. given that i grow up in quite a "negative" home. but at least take some practical steps towards that goal... hopefully with pay increment this year, will have more spare cash to work towards this goal. =) hmmm, plus entrusting my past hurts and allowing healing to take place rather than i trying to work things out my way... a long way to go indeed...
3)Spiritual walk (answered prayers, and how God speaks to me in unique ways.... one incident God speaks to me was one night after my QT, hmmm how God speaks to me abt one of the "hidden hurts" which it never occurs to me until that night... received emotional healing as i surrendered to God) and many others.... too little spaces to write. will share more if there's opportunities.. ya, i will too strive to grow more like Christ. To know Him and to make Him Known... yeah.
4)People whom God bring them into my life to help, motivate and push me along in all aspects of my life... hmmm, pp like Joyce, SM, Na, my dear CGL n cell mates n friends. I'm so blessed... issit it? oh ya, and i'm very grateful for that... always... for their ever patiences, perseverences, encouragements, kind advices and tips... and pushing me... hehe.. even tips on how to be attractive lady from a dear sis..will remembered them as long as i live.. hmmmm,am taking baby steps in working out now.
5)Changes in life... (life phases)... like moving back to pl, departures of pastors etc... how i tried to to depend on my own strength and end up been stressed out... have learnt it the hard way... anyway, i'm on the process of learning to cast all my cares and concerns to God in prayers rather than on my own ability... hmmm, i'm still a "in progress" product... thank goodness... hehehee..
May year 2006 will be a break-thru year for me as i continue to learn from the Lord.. yeah... Jia You!!!
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Hmmm, though my primary love language still around the same, but of course, changes took place like how i use the love languages to others... well, my cg have been a marvelleous place for me to learn to speak new love languages like words of affirmations, physical touch, acts of service, gifts and quality time... though i shd admit that i'm still learning to put them into practise... in church, my cgl has been a great example for me to put them into practise. of course i learn from her how to show love in diff aspects... i'm still in the process of learning... given that all the 5 love languages are quite a alien language to me... obviously, i'm haven got hold of any of them now... sad to say... hmmm, like what the author said, the first few pp i shd learn to put the 5 languages to practise is to bring it to my family members... say is beri easy, but put them into practise is another matter after all...
Even as i reflected what happened in the year 2005, it just dawned to me that i have been indeed quite blessed... not in S11 terms.... but in other areas... like what our ch motto is "Blessed to bless" dun really happen to me but..coming soon hopefully...hehe... i have to admit that i have lotsa of thanksgivings to thank God for... for what He has done in my life and how He has change my situations from beyond hope to some positive... though bad side, have few regrets... hope that i will learn from these few regrets... of course life is not a bed of roses... but i shd live my life as what Jesus promised that He came so that we can have a full and victorious christian life. Here are some of them:-
1)Work. (how God has change from hopelessness to hope in my current workplace... hmmm remembered how i used to complain to my cg mates last year...haha)now, with additional tasks to do and ample chances to learn.. not that i dun have chances at that pt of time but... relationships with coleks turned for better... esp blessed with a really patient supervisor.. hmmm, what can i ask for even better things to come?
2)Personal life (though sometimes i do struggle loving myself as what God loves me and how i shd love myself as a princess of God).. given that i grow up in quite a "negative" home. but at least take some practical steps towards that goal... hopefully with pay increment this year, will have more spare cash to work towards this goal. =) hmmm, plus entrusting my past hurts and allowing healing to take place rather than i trying to work things out my way... a long way to go indeed...
3)Spiritual walk (answered prayers, and how God speaks to me in unique ways.... one incident God speaks to me was one night after my QT, hmmm how God speaks to me abt one of the "hidden hurts" which it never occurs to me until that night... received emotional healing as i surrendered to God) and many others.... too little spaces to write. will share more if there's opportunities.. ya, i will too strive to grow more like Christ. To know Him and to make Him Known... yeah.
4)People whom God bring them into my life to help, motivate and push me along in all aspects of my life... hmmm, pp like Joyce, SM, Na, my dear CGL n cell mates n friends. I'm so blessed... issit it? oh ya, and i'm very grateful for that... always... for their ever patiences, perseverences, encouragements, kind advices and tips... and pushing me... hehe.. even tips on how to be attractive lady from a dear sis..will remembered them as long as i live.. hmmmm,am taking baby steps in working out now.
5)Changes in life... (life phases)... like moving back to pl, departures of pastors etc... how i tried to to depend on my own strength and end up been stressed out... have learnt it the hard way... anyway, i'm on the process of learning to cast all my cares and concerns to God in prayers rather than on my own ability... hmmm, i'm still a "in progress" product... thank goodness... hehehee..
May year 2006 will be a break-thru year for me as i continue to learn from the Lord.. yeah... Jia You!!!
Sunday, January 01, 2006
Blessed New Year 2006
Yo, it's again a brand new year....
Here wishing all of my friends a blessed new year... indeed brand new beginnings shall bring also new things, leaving behind the past in year 2005... but experiences, lessons that happened in the year 2005 shall be something that we can bring to the brand new year... all these happened for a purpose. and i know that God uses all these to mould and change us... wow time passes so fast... and i'm determined to make full use of this year before time robs it away like a mist... quite a tall order for me, but the thing like what p wee said, during the watchnight svc, when are we ready to go back heaven... actually as w mentioned as heaven is so real here, so does the work of the "Father of all lies- Satan"... something was abstract from the movie... like using the temptations like "Turkish Delight etc..." aiyah... even as i'm growing in age, but hopefully i will grow in wisdom... =) my life motivation/push... also can quote from Ps 27;4 (if i remain close to God and learn from God) once again i feel myself really very lo so... will i say to myself at my verge of my life on earth, "It's finished" and go back with the Lord. how many lives have i touched?, did i merely living my life on earth like it's everything to me? or doing the will of the Father? Sometimes as what p wee said that sometimes we hold on very tightly to the material things that we missed the main point. hmmm, though seems that i may have regrets in year 2005, hopefully i wont repeat this brand new year. =)
Again... where's my security/indentity lies at? quite a crucial question... hmmm.... though i may not say it with conviction right now... i will want to say that i wanted to say that my security is found in Christ my saviour and Lord... even as i strive to know Him in more personal/deeper relationship.. okay, shall blog in my new year resolution for year 2006 in the next blog...
Was super tired today as i only slept 3 hrs yesterday.... after watchnight svc, went to watch a movie with 3 sisters...when i finally reached home in the early morning n after settling down, it was already 5am... Woke up at 8am (blame on my biological clock).. slept at W's car and during the bus journey home just now... thought of sleeping after dinner, but couldnt sleep... so decided to blog n pack my room instead... Shall continue to finish in the next part...
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Here wishing all of my friends a blessed new year... indeed brand new beginnings shall bring also new things, leaving behind the past in year 2005... but experiences, lessons that happened in the year 2005 shall be something that we can bring to the brand new year... all these happened for a purpose. and i know that God uses all these to mould and change us... wow time passes so fast... and i'm determined to make full use of this year before time robs it away like a mist... quite a tall order for me, but the thing like what p wee said, during the watchnight svc, when are we ready to go back heaven... actually as w mentioned as heaven is so real here, so does the work of the "Father of all lies- Satan"... something was abstract from the movie... like using the temptations like "Turkish Delight etc..." aiyah... even as i'm growing in age, but hopefully i will grow in wisdom... =) my life motivation/push... also can quote from Ps 27;4 (if i remain close to God and learn from God) once again i feel myself really very lo so... will i say to myself at my verge of my life on earth, "It's finished" and go back with the Lord. how many lives have i touched?, did i merely living my life on earth like it's everything to me? or doing the will of the Father? Sometimes as what p wee said that sometimes we hold on very tightly to the material things that we missed the main point. hmmm, though seems that i may have regrets in year 2005, hopefully i wont repeat this brand new year. =)
Again... where's my security/indentity lies at? quite a crucial question... hmmm.... though i may not say it with conviction right now... i will want to say that i wanted to say that my security is found in Christ my saviour and Lord... even as i strive to know Him in more personal/deeper relationship.. okay, shall blog in my new year resolution for year 2006 in the next blog...
Was super tired today as i only slept 3 hrs yesterday.... after watchnight svc, went to watch a movie with 3 sisters...when i finally reached home in the early morning n after settling down, it was already 5am... Woke up at 8am (blame on my biological clock).. slept at W's car and during the bus journey home just now... thought of sleeping after dinner, but couldnt sleep... so decided to blog n pack my room instead... Shall continue to finish in the next part...
