Tuesday, February 28, 2006
New learnings... =)
hmmm, just felt like blogging abt my BSF lessons yesterday...
One thing that i had misunderstood abt God in the book of Genesis, was when Adam and Eve sinned against God, though God banished them from the garden of Eden, and preventing them from getting near/able to touch the tree of life which wasnt forbbidden to them before the fall of man... i thought that because man sinned against God thus God decided to forbid them from eating the fruit from the tree of life... (never would i expect that it's God's ultimate love for Adam and Eve and their generations, cause if they ate the fruit of the tree of life, they will be forever seperated from God)... never would i realised that God had already His plan of redemption for all mankind even from the point when Adam and Eve ate the forbidden fruit.
Gen 3:15, God had already had plan for His Son, Jesus to come and redeem us from our sins, give us eternal life and the defeat of Satan by Jesus. hmmm... it's something that i must always reminded myself that it's not a co-incidence that Jesus came down to take away our sins, but it's was already God's plan in the beginning.
Another thing that i have learnt was when Satan uses all his means and ways to deceive Eve and Jesus while He's in the desert...
it's wasnt a subtle temptations to lure Eve to sin, but he uses techniques to pull Eve to her most intermost desire, is to be like God to know what's good and evil, by pulling her concentration to focus on the forbidden tree and opening her heart to temptations...
Times when i allow Satan to deceive me were the times i allow myself to focus on what he can offer me (forgetting that satan is the father of all lies)... things that attracts me the most, worldly pocessions.. etc... sometimes, as what i feel the same as what my DG pp had shared, that i have spent more time with my loved ones rather than spending more time knowing God by studying His Word... Back-tracked a bit... when i failed to get i want, then the first things, guess that i will blame God first... aiyah... As what i have said many times, i will spend more time in God's Word rather than put on holding on to just saying.
hmmm, guess that hearing God's Word from others wont help much in my spiritual intake as compared from hearing from God Himself... Food for thought**
... will continue again...
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One thing that i had misunderstood abt God in the book of Genesis, was when Adam and Eve sinned against God, though God banished them from the garden of Eden, and preventing them from getting near/able to touch the tree of life which wasnt forbbidden to them before the fall of man... i thought that because man sinned against God thus God decided to forbid them from eating the fruit from the tree of life... (never would i expect that it's God's ultimate love for Adam and Eve and their generations, cause if they ate the fruit of the tree of life, they will be forever seperated from God)... never would i realised that God had already His plan of redemption for all mankind even from the point when Adam and Eve ate the forbidden fruit.
Gen 3:15, God had already had plan for His Son, Jesus to come and redeem us from our sins, give us eternal life and the defeat of Satan by Jesus. hmmm... it's something that i must always reminded myself that it's not a co-incidence that Jesus came down to take away our sins, but it's was already God's plan in the beginning.
Another thing that i have learnt was when Satan uses all his means and ways to deceive Eve and Jesus while He's in the desert...
it's wasnt a subtle temptations to lure Eve to sin, but he uses techniques to pull Eve to her most intermost desire, is to be like God to know what's good and evil, by pulling her concentration to focus on the forbidden tree and opening her heart to temptations...
Times when i allow Satan to deceive me were the times i allow myself to focus on what he can offer me (forgetting that satan is the father of all lies)... things that attracts me the most, worldly pocessions.. etc... sometimes, as what i feel the same as what my DG pp had shared, that i have spent more time with my loved ones rather than spending more time knowing God by studying His Word... Back-tracked a bit... when i failed to get i want, then the first things, guess that i will blame God first... aiyah... As what i have said many times, i will spend more time in God's Word rather than put on holding on to just saying.
hmmm, guess that hearing God's Word from others wont help much in my spiritual intake as compared from hearing from God Himself... Food for thought**
... will continue again...
Friday, February 24, 2006
Random/messy tots thru my mind now.
Just realised that i have been blogging from my workplace for the last few blogs....
Not that i dun have much time at home, but enuff for me to watch abt 1 hr of tv and dump myself into bed after that... =(
Recently find myself end up in bed without doing my daily lessons... Oops... was too tired to even sit upright and stayed focused.
Anyway, tmr is finally weekend...time for resting my body and soul. =)
But hey, got the frisbee clinic organised by the Spore Ultimate for ladies tmr at Bishan Pk2... am quite excited how is it... Hope rain wont come and visit Bishan tmr, hmmm, was thinking should i bring running shoes or my fav soccer boots!!! only 2 of us will be going tmr, but we will be back with more techniques on the games and hopefully can share with the rest of the gang when we played this sunday. =)
Yeah, counting down to tmr... also counting down to the next break/holiday... but too long to count... =(
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Not that i dun have much time at home, but enuff for me to watch abt 1 hr of tv and dump myself into bed after that... =(
Recently find myself end up in bed without doing my daily lessons... Oops... was too tired to even sit upright and stayed focused.
Anyway, tmr is finally weekend...time for resting my body and soul. =)
But hey, got the frisbee clinic organised by the Spore Ultimate for ladies tmr at Bishan Pk2... am quite excited how is it... Hope rain wont come and visit Bishan tmr, hmmm, was thinking should i bring running shoes or my fav soccer boots!!! only 2 of us will be going tmr, but we will be back with more techniques on the games and hopefully can share with the rest of the gang when we played this sunday. =)
Yeah, counting down to tmr... also counting down to the next break/holiday... but too long to count... =(
Wednesday, February 22, 2006
Continue from yesterday's blog.
hmmm, guess i'm much grateful to God for creating me such a special way, for i have the breathe of God in me. and again, to reflect that God had that special place in my heart which no other things on earth can replaced it... n that i'm so special to God that He took the effort to create me in God's image and in God's image, He create me.
Guess that the mentioning of God's work for Adam just came in as a timely reminder that God had already set aside for man as part of His design and to give man a purpose to live.... when He created us, not after we sinned... so guess that my attitude towards my work had to be changed, from the negative/earthly perspective that work is draggy and boring and stuffs like that... instead y dun look at it that we too can find our purspose in that aspect hmmm, like what God has orginally intended work to be... that i will find joy in my work, no matter how bad my situation maybe???
Ya, am allowing God to change my view and persepctive of work... just being excited...
Hmmm, during the past weeks, i'm affected by work quite badly, with the tight deadline looming near and additional workloads. In the midst of this, guess i must have stumbled some, inflicted some sorts of hurts, words came out at the wrong timing esp words that hurts, esp when i'm silent etc... cant think of more to write... I'm sorry for being such a negative example during this period. Though hurts may not entirely erased off, but i hope that God will be the one who heals us lor... i'm too was hurted... esp by my superior, whom misunderstandings arises from no/little communications... am learning to be better in area. =) Just wanna encourage ourselves(including myself) to give to Jesus our concerns in prayer rather than trying to sort it on our own.
Anyway, it's always good to being reminded and relearn new facts about God during the bible study... and am grateful to God that i'm not struggling alone... and that the very fact that i'm special to God in His design. =) yeah, hopefully will learn exciting stuffs about God this week b.s daily lessons.
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Guess that the mentioning of God's work for Adam just came in as a timely reminder that God had already set aside for man as part of His design and to give man a purpose to live.... when He created us, not after we sinned... so guess that my attitude towards my work had to be changed, from the negative/earthly perspective that work is draggy and boring and stuffs like that... instead y dun look at it that we too can find our purspose in that aspect hmmm, like what God has orginally intended work to be... that i will find joy in my work, no matter how bad my situation maybe???
Ya, am allowing God to change my view and persepctive of work... just being excited...
Hmmm, during the past weeks, i'm affected by work quite badly, with the tight deadline looming near and additional workloads. In the midst of this, guess i must have stumbled some, inflicted some sorts of hurts, words came out at the wrong timing esp words that hurts, esp when i'm silent etc... cant think of more to write... I'm sorry for being such a negative example during this period. Though hurts may not entirely erased off, but i hope that God will be the one who heals us lor... i'm too was hurted... esp by my superior, whom misunderstandings arises from no/little communications... am learning to be better in area. =) Just wanna encourage ourselves(including myself) to give to Jesus our concerns in prayer rather than trying to sort it on our own.
Anyway, it's always good to being reminded and relearn new facts about God during the bible study... and am grateful to God that i'm not struggling alone... and that the very fact that i'm special to God in His design. =) yeah, hopefully will learn exciting stuffs about God this week b.s daily lessons.
Tuesday, February 21, 2006
Some inspiring lessons learnt yesterday.
Yesterday lessons and discussion time had inspired me, esp during some of the lesson's questions in day 2 on "which of these facts makes u grateful to God?" extract from the actual creation of Adam and Eve. The very fact that when God create the whole creation, all he said was "let there be....", while for man, God said "Let us create man in our own image... Gen 2, God breathed into us, the breathe of life... ) which only man had that ownship of God, God's bring part of us... that's i think i'm grateful for that.
2nd, was the difference between Gen 1 and 2... Think that distinguish the 2 chapters was the fact that God was just merely a creator that put everything in it's place... while in Chp 2, God present Himself as a personal God who took much emphasis on the details and getting involved in man's life, like....
Shall continue later. coz it's time back to work.
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2nd, was the difference between Gen 1 and 2... Think that distinguish the 2 chapters was the fact that God was just merely a creator that put everything in it's place... while in Chp 2, God present Himself as a personal God who took much emphasis on the details and getting involved in man's life, like....
Shall continue later. coz it's time back to work.
Saturday, February 18, 2006
Working Today.
Yo, i'm back working today. Have to finish up an assignment before end of the month b4 i will be dead meat. But unlike in the past, some will be back to report work.
Ever since, our recent changes happened in our company, lotsa of the staffs have stopped working very late as it's quite norm thing to work past 12am, but last week, when i knocked off work at 11pm, almost every cubicles are emptied. it's part of the changes that discourage us from working OT and claiming (if provided, we can ask for the claim).
Okay, enuff of my grumbling. Back to work.
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Ever since, our recent changes happened in our company, lotsa of the staffs have stopped working very late as it's quite norm thing to work past 12am, but last week, when i knocked off work at 11pm, almost every cubicles are emptied. it's part of the changes that discourage us from working OT and claiming (if provided, we can ask for the claim).
Okay, enuff of my grumbling. Back to work.
Friday, February 17, 2006
Update of myself!!!
Yeah, seems quite sum time since i blog the last time, frequency has sort of drop a bit. ya, was quite got up with my work recently... Got stressed up, frustrated with myself not unproductive, relationships with pp not at a healthy level... hmmm, pented-up frustrations has really got into me, think since 2 weeks ago... confidence level too dropped, wondering whether should i buried myself instead of giving "trouble" to pp??? thus sometimes really dun feel like talking to anyone even to my close friends n ch mates...
just few days ago, had a male colek whom i feel to him is translated into mandarin "fan gan" backstabbed me again ... Oh goodnes... ya. he would always "surgeon me" when he's stressed up with work/after scolded by our assoc... this time round, history repeats itself... as usual after his displeasure with me, he will go and complain to our assoc... which i will be called in his room, to have a lengthy talk... anyway, this's not the first time i genna "arrowed" by him. Just that, my time is wasted!!! my assoc always listen to one-sided story and defend my that male colek. Used to reasoned with him nicely (few times, i think), but since he dun even listen to my side of story, now i just agree to whatever my assoc said. at least, i have few more years to live by agreeing (though very reluctant).
Ya, finally, got the opportunity to meet up with my "mentor" JL whom i am always encouraged by her sharings, though this time round, shared with her some of my struggles n issues that have been bugging me for the past week. Heard from a wise sister (spiritual mum), at least i have a clearer pic, and the advices that helped a lot to clear my doubts. I'm thankful that God has brought this sis to encourage beside 2 who too has blessed me by their encouragements and helps... though this issue of mine still bothers me sometimes, i have only 1 option, that's to commit to God, coz i know myself best that i'm also helpless too. yeah, also thankful to have pp praying for me... accountable for.... beside cell-mates... Ya, just now, was once reminded during cell that i have not been a faithful "cell buddy". What have i done to encourage my buddy in anyway?
hehe... anyway, just to "diao" my cg pp's appetite... hmmm, yeah, wanna blog about it but dun think it's the right time loh... though very tempted to tell the whole world about it... but better zip up my mouth. hehe... shall remain a secret until then.
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just few days ago, had a male colek whom i feel to him is translated into mandarin "fan gan" backstabbed me again ... Oh goodnes... ya. he would always "surgeon me" when he's stressed up with work/after scolded by our assoc... this time round, history repeats itself... as usual after his displeasure with me, he will go and complain to our assoc... which i will be called in his room, to have a lengthy talk... anyway, this's not the first time i genna "arrowed" by him. Just that, my time is wasted!!! my assoc always listen to one-sided story and defend my that male colek. Used to reasoned with him nicely (few times, i think), but since he dun even listen to my side of story, now i just agree to whatever my assoc said. at least, i have few more years to live by agreeing (though very reluctant).
Ya, finally, got the opportunity to meet up with my "mentor" JL whom i am always encouraged by her sharings, though this time round, shared with her some of my struggles n issues that have been bugging me for the past week. Heard from a wise sister (spiritual mum), at least i have a clearer pic, and the advices that helped a lot to clear my doubts. I'm thankful that God has brought this sis to encourage beside 2 who too has blessed me by their encouragements and helps... though this issue of mine still bothers me sometimes, i have only 1 option, that's to commit to God, coz i know myself best that i'm also helpless too. yeah, also thankful to have pp praying for me... accountable for.... beside cell-mates... Ya, just now, was once reminded during cell that i have not been a faithful "cell buddy". What have i done to encourage my buddy in anyway?
hehe... anyway, just to "diao" my cg pp's appetite... hmmm, yeah, wanna blog about it but dun think it's the right time loh... though very tempted to tell the whole world about it... but better zip up my mouth. hehe... shall remain a secret until then.
Tuesday, February 14, 2006
Valentine Day!!!
hmmm, today's VD... guess my coleks also dun celebrate VD/too busy, so everyone still back in office trying to clear their work... me too... Just had a "burger Lunch" my with directors, hmmm, left with only 2 weeks or i should say less than that.. as we need to sit down with the mc to discuss and agree upon the final figure... arugghhh, think my weekend onwards will be burnt in office... ya, am quite mentally tired... trying to figure it out how to meet this dateline, when my exec director indicates that must closed the final a/c by end of this month.
Okay, cannot complain anymore... =) if not have to burn further midnight oil. hmmm, just remembered the "boundaries when God create the seas, not to cross over the boundary that set for land only"... our class teacher relates it to our troubles in our lives...
ok, shall continue my blog again... have to rush off.
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Okay, cannot complain anymore... =) if not have to burn further midnight oil. hmmm, just remembered the "boundaries when God create the seas, not to cross over the boundary that set for land only"... our class teacher relates it to our troubles in our lives...
ok, shall continue my blog again... have to rush off.
Saturday, February 11, 2006
Workout at California fitness...
Yo, today is my first workout at one of the branches here... was supposed to have a personal trainer to guide me along during my entire workout...but end up i'm doing all by myself... hmmm, so i was instructed to use the express zone which i find a bit boring and i need to do repetitions of 2 -3 times of 15 sets of each machines. But end up, my muscles end up over-worked as i literally push all the way, ending using weights as heavy as 20 pounds...
Oh ya, managed to see e "live reports" as mentioned from my fren!!!
Ya, went to watch "I not Stupid 2" with my CG mates last wednesday evening at PS... hmmm, as i did not watch the 1st movie, dun have much to compare... but generally speaking, i find that the overall of the movie was quite good... where the director use unique ways to "magnify" the problems in spore are facing... etc... hmmm, quite touching almost to the end... when the director show what ultimately the greatest love is( quite kua Zhang but it's the truth mah) when one of the cast throw away his opporunity to get promoted and gain commision in order to save his son from arrested from attempted theft... Was nearly moved to tears... Just being reminded of when our heavenly Father sent His Son to save us from our sins when we couldnt even saved ourselves at His's own expense... This such wonderful gift and grace that God has given me, just feel that i should take this gift for granted... Oops, think i'm getting a bit lo soh, but wanna remind myself that i did not earn this merit on my own ability/strength but rather God's Love for each and individual one of us. Am really glad that i know a God that who truly desire to want to own this personal relationship and as much He would like us to respond back to Him out of reverence and graditude..
hmmm, dun really quite agree with what the rest of the cg's thoughts that the movie is trying to push the blame to the parents/spore systems etc only... i think as much as, the parents themselves should bear much responsibilities as well, not just the school/school system... if only they are much willing to put aside time with their kids and have a better understanding of how they feel or made an efforts to know their kids, all the "troubles" caused by the kids/teenagers wont be even a concern to them... hmmm, and though it may seems quite "extreme" to them... the movie did not really show the most extreme side... parents communicating with their kids are quite norm, esp working parents... and the rest of the examples protrayed were quite mild already... From this movie, ultimately that can bring divisions/conflicts are times when there's breakdown in communication between the various parties... hmmm, when times when pp starts assuming things and didnt picks up clarifications... like the little boy(shawn's brother in the movie) assumed that his parents are too busy to attend his concert??? Happens to me sometimes, when i just assumed... hmmm, when i just cant clarify??? what's causes me to hold back??? fear of rejection, pride...
hmmm, something that strikes me on one of the scenarios when one of the kid had to use his internet blog to pour out his sorrows/feelings, sometimes i think it happened to me, to my friends, ch mates... when i could just easily share with them personally... could not really understand how Handiworks feel abt being very comfortable with her cliques that no opportunity for deeper sharings but quite agree with her... was just wondering if we are simply too comfortable with a batch of group of frens or have we build up a "tall walls surrounding ourselves" that we did not even allow pp to come into our personal life?? has online blogging has caused much of this??? or did we not even give chances/opportunities for others to share?? (taken away the right time/environment reasoning)...hmmm, only ourselves know best???
Well, for me... personally i would like to share more of my thoughts to my Hope mates, but given that limited time spent together (after svc and before the Frisbee game with my usual hang out gang)... find myself little opporunity to share... hmmm, well, sometimes, just felt that i was not even given that chance to talk/ or should i say if pp's willing to hear me??? r they patient enuff for me to finish sharing before they get distracted by other stuffs??? (No offence/ other bad intentions...) Just being contented with my group of frens at Hope, even though i didnt shared much of myself/my life with them. Did i not make enuff efforts??? well, partly i have myself to blame too... for not taking the 1st initiative steps... when i just could.....
am resting at JN's place, resting my tired body before heading for the cycling outing later at ECP.....hmmm, didnt have lunch... but hopefully can still tahan for the cycling later.... Phews, i felt so refreshed after the whole workout... finally without having to allow work to enter into my thoughts....that's something that i like to work out in gym as compared to going for classes... esp when i'm doing on threadmail or even steps machine... as least when i'm focus on the stuffs like my speed, heartbeat, i tends to put everything aside...
Yeah, weather dun looks good now... looks like it's going to rain...anyway, am going to shake legs until the time to leave for ECP.
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Oh ya, managed to see e "live reports" as mentioned from my fren!!!
Ya, went to watch "I not Stupid 2" with my CG mates last wednesday evening at PS... hmmm, as i did not watch the 1st movie, dun have much to compare... but generally speaking, i find that the overall of the movie was quite good... where the director use unique ways to "magnify" the problems in spore are facing... etc... hmmm, quite touching almost to the end... when the director show what ultimately the greatest love is( quite kua Zhang but it's the truth mah) when one of the cast throw away his opporunity to get promoted and gain commision in order to save his son from arrested from attempted theft... Was nearly moved to tears... Just being reminded of when our heavenly Father sent His Son to save us from our sins when we couldnt even saved ourselves at His's own expense... This such wonderful gift and grace that God has given me, just feel that i should take this gift for granted... Oops, think i'm getting a bit lo soh, but wanna remind myself that i did not earn this merit on my own ability/strength but rather God's Love for each and individual one of us. Am really glad that i know a God that who truly desire to want to own this personal relationship and as much He would like us to respond back to Him out of reverence and graditude..
hmmm, dun really quite agree with what the rest of the cg's thoughts that the movie is trying to push the blame to the parents/spore systems etc only... i think as much as, the parents themselves should bear much responsibilities as well, not just the school/school system... if only they are much willing to put aside time with their kids and have a better understanding of how they feel or made an efforts to know their kids, all the "troubles" caused by the kids/teenagers wont be even a concern to them... hmmm, and though it may seems quite "extreme" to them... the movie did not really show the most extreme side... parents communicating with their kids are quite norm, esp working parents... and the rest of the examples protrayed were quite mild already... From this movie, ultimately that can bring divisions/conflicts are times when there's breakdown in communication between the various parties... hmmm, when times when pp starts assuming things and didnt picks up clarifications... like the little boy(shawn's brother in the movie) assumed that his parents are too busy to attend his concert??? Happens to me sometimes, when i just assumed... hmmm, when i just cant clarify??? what's causes me to hold back??? fear of rejection, pride...
hmmm, something that strikes me on one of the scenarios when one of the kid had to use his internet blog to pour out his sorrows/feelings, sometimes i think it happened to me, to my friends, ch mates... when i could just easily share with them personally... could not really understand how Handiworks feel abt being very comfortable with her cliques that no opportunity for deeper sharings but quite agree with her... was just wondering if we are simply too comfortable with a batch of group of frens or have we build up a "tall walls surrounding ourselves" that we did not even allow pp to come into our personal life?? has online blogging has caused much of this??? or did we not even give chances/opportunities for others to share?? (taken away the right time/environment reasoning)...hmmm, only ourselves know best???
Well, for me... personally i would like to share more of my thoughts to my Hope mates, but given that limited time spent together (after svc and before the Frisbee game with my usual hang out gang)... find myself little opporunity to share... hmmm, well, sometimes, just felt that i was not even given that chance to talk/ or should i say if pp's willing to hear me??? r they patient enuff for me to finish sharing before they get distracted by other stuffs??? (No offence/ other bad intentions...) Just being contented with my group of frens at Hope, even though i didnt shared much of myself/my life with them. Did i not make enuff efforts??? well, partly i have myself to blame too... for not taking the 1st initiative steps... when i just could.....
am resting at JN's place, resting my tired body before heading for the cycling outing later at ECP.....hmmm, didnt have lunch... but hopefully can still tahan for the cycling later.... Phews, i felt so refreshed after the whole workout... finally without having to allow work to enter into my thoughts....that's something that i like to work out in gym as compared to going for classes... esp when i'm doing on threadmail or even steps machine... as least when i'm focus on the stuffs like my speed, heartbeat, i tends to put everything aside...
Yeah, weather dun looks good now... looks like it's going to rain...anyway, am going to shake legs until the time to leave for ECP.
Friday, February 10, 2006
Working OT...
Oh no, first time this year work OT until that jialat... what to do leh.... with only me and myself to blame for dingy dally during working time and as what my PQS said was quite true... sometimes i can be distracted by the happenings in office that i just couldnt focus at my work... quite true esp this few weeks... being quite tired and un-motivated at work, so thus explain my out of focus situation...aiyah, had a few misunderstandings with my superior today at work... with my damn lousy attitude... wonder had i done much damage to our working relationship... Just now, just before my pqs left office for the day, finally plucked up all my courage and apologize... hmmm, usually i dun... which i will give all sorts of excuses...
Finally we had a good talk... a lot of clarifications... which i think it's relevant in better understanding of my work and advices for me to become a better ASQ... Okay lah, i'm agreed with what she had shared... Just that i need to changed/willing to change for the better lah!!! Hmmm, actually i need to make much more efforts to be more meticulous in my work as my boss like to said about me... since i'm part of the team in managing our client's finance... any mistakes will reflect poorly on our com's reputation...
Aiyah, what ultimately that stresses me the most is that... mistakes!!!
After checks and checks, and i could still find mistakes... ( same sentiment from my superior as well)... Just have to be extra careful with my future work... sometimes, i just feel like giving up... but... i wont want to be a quitter? am i?
Just been encouraged that i'm not the only one struggling in my work... Just wanna add in a few words of encouragements to those in the "same boat"... Jesus knows our struggles and could want to take the load from us... if only we allow ourselves to surrender them??? A lot of trust involved... like when Peter walks on the walk to Jesus??? could i take up such a big faith to trust God that in my current situation, He's still in-charge?? Knowing a God who will never forsake us???
Okay shall stop here...
Hmmm, with few tenders coming in, i'm preparing myself for weeks of working midnight oil...
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Finally we had a good talk... a lot of clarifications... which i think it's relevant in better understanding of my work and advices for me to become a better ASQ... Okay lah, i'm agreed with what she had shared... Just that i need to changed/willing to change for the better lah!!! Hmmm, actually i need to make much more efforts to be more meticulous in my work as my boss like to said about me... since i'm part of the team in managing our client's finance... any mistakes will reflect poorly on our com's reputation...
Aiyah, what ultimately that stresses me the most is that... mistakes!!!
After checks and checks, and i could still find mistakes... ( same sentiment from my superior as well)... Just have to be extra careful with my future work... sometimes, i just feel like giving up... but... i wont want to be a quitter? am i?
Just been encouraged that i'm not the only one struggling in my work... Just wanna add in a few words of encouragements to those in the "same boat"... Jesus knows our struggles and could want to take the load from us... if only we allow ourselves to surrender them??? A lot of trust involved... like when Peter walks on the walk to Jesus??? could i take up such a big faith to trust God that in my current situation, He's still in-charge?? Knowing a God who will never forsake us???
Okay shall stop here...
Hmmm, with few tenders coming in, i'm preparing myself for weeks of working midnight oil...
Tuesday, February 07, 2006
Fireworks!!!
hmmm, first time saw fireworks from my office... one of my colek commented that for the last few nights got fireworks... guess they knew because they always work OT... wow, today i also managed to see it for myself... wonder what's the occasion for them to put up fireworks every nights???
It's really nice to see the fireworks even though it's not that far from my office... and the clear night skies helps to magnify the beauty of the fireworks... =)
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It's really nice to see the fireworks even though it's not that far from my office... and the clear night skies helps to magnify the beauty of the fireworks... =)
Correction..
Thanks to Grace, didnt realised that it was a mistake in the last blog...
anyway since i didnt want to work during lunch hours, shall blog in something...
Few weeks ago before CNY , won myself a 2 weeks of free temp membership with C.F/ or shd i say been told that i have won in their lucky draw and invited to the 2 freebie weeks of free usage of their gym and facilities... maybe it's one of their "reach out/advertisement" to draw more potential pp into CF and in the process was been intro into their facilities and their programmes... hmmm, this time i was quite firm in not allowing myself to "obliged" to their fantastic offers though it was quite good... anyway i'm still a member with A, so no point in getting myself more "debts" to clear end of the month... phews... guess i'm getting better at being more firm... (a learning process, i think) =)
But since, they still quite professional and the 2 weeks of free membership still stands... so will be trying out this coming thursday with my sis n her fren.
hmmm, at the same time allows me to relax and see muscular guys... =) haha...
Okay, enuff of my "rubbish"... shall continue next time after i tried it out and get to see the "live reports" heard from my fren...
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anyway since i didnt want to work during lunch hours, shall blog in something...
Few weeks ago before CNY , won myself a 2 weeks of free temp membership with C.F/ or shd i say been told that i have won in their lucky draw and invited to the 2 freebie weeks of free usage of their gym and facilities... maybe it's one of their "reach out/advertisement" to draw more potential pp into CF and in the process was been intro into their facilities and their programmes... hmmm, this time i was quite firm in not allowing myself to "obliged" to their fantastic offers though it was quite good... anyway i'm still a member with A, so no point in getting myself more "debts" to clear end of the month... phews... guess i'm getting better at being more firm... (a learning process, i think) =)
But since, they still quite professional and the 2 weeks of free membership still stands... so will be trying out this coming thursday with my sis n her fren.
hmmm, at the same time allows me to relax and see muscular guys... =) haha...
Okay, enuff of my "rubbish"... shall continue next time after i tried it out and get to see the "live reports" heard from my fren...
Sunday, February 05, 2006
What an experience!!!
Yup, missed last sunday service at PL and instead went KTV with my sister...
Hmmm, it's so good to be God's house again worshipping with God's people... experienced what really God's peace is really about.... it's been so long since i enjoyed the presence of God..like what p. p at NCC said during one of his sermon... something abt entering into His rest... it's has sort of prayer for myself esp times when i'm stressed up... but this time, has managed to get itself exluded from my prayer... was thinking thru what today sermon was shared by p. peter koh... sudden dawn to me that i have been trying too hard on my own human efforts instead of going back to God.. am i trying to put down on God's effort that has already accomplished on the cross and His promises.. in Matt 11:28-30. It was just a simple prayer which commited to God abt my burdens and ask God to help me dump all my worries, cares and concern outside the door of God's house before the whole service starts. it's been quite sometime which i experience the peace of God. Just a timely reminder that times when i tried to make things by my own ways, or human methods, even til that i can be found so faithless, God will always be faithful, patiently waiting for us to return back to Him some days.
Today learn some new things from the sermon today by p peter... and some which just to again remind me... sermon title is Table of Grace which today is also communion Sunday.
1)GRACE- God's Riches At Christ's Expense. (wow, never knew this will actually put it into a sentence. Ya, i totally agree with it... Pastor begin the sermon, by sharing with the whole svc pp, by recapping how Jesus suffered for us, humilated and died for our sins... esp when he shared of the pains of the tearing of the skin when Jesus was tortured with those sharp whips with sharp hooks in it.. (if i remembered correctly)... correct me if i'm wrong.
2) Being in God's presence can transform us
3) To continue to turn away from our sins and to renounce them to God
A question was thrown to us reminding again that r u willing n allow God to change u, accepting His perfect lives in exhange of our sinful lives? A question esp for me to ponder over and over again of what i shd do in gratitude of what Jesus has done for me?
Hmmm, today had a fun game at the frisbee even though in the beginning was a bit sunny, but thank God that He use clouds to shield away the glaring sun rays. Today I,WL and some of the non hope players joined us today... managed to get a team of 8 players in each team. a good turnout i shd say even the numbers have been dwindling esp this year. Wind was especially strong today... Given myself down esp few times when i can catch or block some of the throws... by my eyes today... Kenna a bit scary and found myself rooted to the ground, when think 2-3 times when i saw the frisbee coming towards me and suddenly disappear from my sight... i just simply shut off my eyes or just simply get frozen... Could be the last incident genna hit at my cheekbone by the frisbee end of last year... hmmm, think i have e phobia of seeing frisbee flying towards me at my eye level. Okay, have to go and rest (i mean physical rest.. ) =P
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Hmmm, it's so good to be God's house again worshipping with God's people... experienced what really God's peace is really about.... it's been so long since i enjoyed the presence of God..like what p. p at NCC said during one of his sermon... something abt entering into His rest... it's has sort of prayer for myself esp times when i'm stressed up... but this time, has managed to get itself exluded from my prayer... was thinking thru what today sermon was shared by p. peter koh... sudden dawn to me that i have been trying too hard on my own human efforts instead of going back to God.. am i trying to put down on God's effort that has already accomplished on the cross and His promises.. in Matt 11:28-30. It was just a simple prayer which commited to God abt my burdens and ask God to help me dump all my worries, cares and concern outside the door of God's house before the whole service starts. it's been quite sometime which i experience the peace of God. Just a timely reminder that times when i tried to make things by my own ways, or human methods, even til that i can be found so faithless, God will always be faithful, patiently waiting for us to return back to Him some days.
Today learn some new things from the sermon today by p peter... and some which just to again remind me... sermon title is Table of Grace which today is also communion Sunday.
1)GRACE- God's Riches At Christ's Expense. (wow, never knew this will actually put it into a sentence. Ya, i totally agree with it... Pastor begin the sermon, by sharing with the whole svc pp, by recapping how Jesus suffered for us, humilated and died for our sins... esp when he shared of the pains of the tearing of the skin when Jesus was tortured with those sharp whips with sharp hooks in it.. (if i remembered correctly)... correct me if i'm wrong.
2) Being in God's presence can transform us
3) To continue to turn away from our sins and to renounce them to God
A question was thrown to us reminding again that r u willing n allow God to change u, accepting His perfect lives in exhange of our sinful lives? A question esp for me to ponder over and over again of what i shd do in gratitude of what Jesus has done for me?
Hmmm, today had a fun game at the frisbee even though in the beginning was a bit sunny, but thank God that He use clouds to shield away the glaring sun rays. Today I,WL and some of the non hope players joined us today... managed to get a team of 8 players in each team. a good turnout i shd say even the numbers have been dwindling esp this year. Wind was especially strong today... Given myself down esp few times when i can catch or block some of the throws... by my eyes today... Kenna a bit scary and found myself rooted to the ground, when think 2-3 times when i saw the frisbee coming towards me and suddenly disappear from my sight... i just simply shut off my eyes or just simply get frozen... Could be the last incident genna hit at my cheekbone by the frisbee end of last year... hmmm, think i have e phobia of seeing frisbee flying towards me at my eye level. Okay, have to go and rest (i mean physical rest.. ) =P
Friday, February 03, 2006
No idea what to put in the header!!!
Yeah, finally it's almost the end of the week, before it's weekend... n best of all my "boss" also on 1/2 day afternoon leave... am i still stucked at my desk, wondering how to finish up my stuffs before the clock hits 6pm today.
Ya, wasted half a day, Zzzzz at my desk (Not that jialat), but it sort of affect my work output... never mind about that. Next week, was scheduled for a site walk for 1 of my project, so have to get prepared all the required doc by latest today... so that wont have the last min panic, and have to finish up another proj stuff by Monday. I'm dead meat liao... haha.. Ooops... God help me!!! Guess i'm just tired... dun mind all my rubbishs.. haha..
Hmmm, it's Feb liao... so fast 1 mth has gone by... am thinking of taking up music lessons but guess will have to delay by few weeks again... hmmm, dun know when will be their next intake???
Am taking my lunch break blogging since i finish my lunch quite fast.
Yo, quite excited to the cny visitation later to E's place, hmmmm, never been to her place before and guess i'm quite looking forward... instead of the usual PDL stuffs which can be quite boring.. Oops... think i could get myself killed for saying this. hehe... and tmr visitation too to my frens' places... Still haven really recover from the late nights during the hoildays... could still hardy focus at times... and i still refused to allow my body to recover fully... guess the next time for my body to recover will be the time i'm sick and on mc. hmmm, am already have that thoughts, though it's not right. guess it will be only a thought.
Okay, time to get back work/ or i shd say buried by work!!!
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Ya, wasted half a day, Zzzzz at my desk (Not that jialat), but it sort of affect my work output... never mind about that. Next week, was scheduled for a site walk for 1 of my project, so have to get prepared all the required doc by latest today... so that wont have the last min panic, and have to finish up another proj stuff by Monday. I'm dead meat liao... haha.. Ooops... God help me!!! Guess i'm just tired... dun mind all my rubbishs.. haha..
Hmmm, it's Feb liao... so fast 1 mth has gone by... am thinking of taking up music lessons but guess will have to delay by few weeks again... hmmm, dun know when will be their next intake???
Am taking my lunch break blogging since i finish my lunch quite fast.
Yo, quite excited to the cny visitation later to E's place, hmmmm, never been to her place before and guess i'm quite looking forward... instead of the usual PDL stuffs which can be quite boring.. Oops... think i could get myself killed for saying this. hehe... and tmr visitation too to my frens' places... Still haven really recover from the late nights during the hoildays... could still hardy focus at times... and i still refused to allow my body to recover fully... guess the next time for my body to recover will be the time i'm sick and on mc. hmmm, am already have that thoughts, though it's not right. guess it will be only a thought.
Okay, time to get back work/ or i shd say buried by work!!!
