A Time to Reflect with Thanksgiving.

was quite looking looking forward today, as i was expecting calls from either D or P co. initially was quite unsure, but then i was reminded that God loves us and he desires the best for us, so instead of keep that matter in my mind, i decide to pray to God. quite unusual of me to surrender to God even for such a small matter but i did it anyway.

was quite a busy day as my minutes in office was filled up with lotsa of things to do like alteration, additional items etc... as usual, had my lunch in office. after lunch, i went to the nearby mall to have a walk around with my the other colek. Normally we will eat in but today she forgot to bring her lunch in, and i met up her somewhere in the mall and starts to hear her complains. but i'm used to that already. went to the candy store, but i could only admire at the chocolates and sweets. But anyway my colek offered to share the candy and i got the candies just like that even w/o having to pay a cent. :)

After lunch, i received a call from D. and guess what? it's a good news call, but i sort of like bargain with them abt e starting date. well, though they seems unwilling, but they still agree. so e latest call will be from the HR to sign e L.O.A.

Left office today at 6.50pm, it's one of the unusual days because i will leave my office on the dot. :) okay, have to get back to practice on my puppetry scripts before i got stucked to the p.c.

As usual, sunday is one of the day that i can take a rest from all my work... from working, to meeting friends.... etc.... my alarm didnt ring today as well, but woke up early. :) but dilly-dally makes me late again for the service. :6 so coincidence again, met C again.

As i got on the bus, instead of napping, i decided to do on the reading of "The purpose Driven Life" What makes God smile?
In Psalms 119:135 (NIV) says "Make your face shine upon your servant and teach me your decrees." To make God smile must first is to please God, then when God is please, he will smile. Then how can we see God smiles.... From the author, a mini summary from the book:

1)God smiles when we love him supremely.
under this sub-pts, God loves us and he desire our love in return by knowing him and spending time with him.
2)God smiles when we trust him completely.
Trusting him without any questions even when he ask us to do immposible things or things which are beyond our imagination. Trusting in God means that to have faith that God has the best for us.
3)God smiles when we obey him wholeheartedly.
4)God smiles when we praise and thank him continually.
5)God smiles when we use our abilities.

as i was reflecting today what had happened, just remembered our CG discussion today, and it sort like link to it. Dun know if struggling to accept is it equal to rejecting? was having this thoughts... still thinking...
ref: p75 2nd paragraph, 3rd line.

Took half day today as i got to go for a interview afternoon at DLS, was quite shocked when a guy sudden out of the blue called me early in the morning. So got myself a half day off and tomorrow morning off. it was quite a relaxing day, i have completed all the work that was passed to me. Had lunch with a colek who will be leaving tomorrow.

Finally time for me, to leave office for my interview, was quite unprepared as i was notified quite last minute also. But i was in formal attire. :) Was raining quite heavily by the time i reach Chinatown and starts to pour when i was walking towards the M.O.M building and the best thing is i do not have an umbrella with me. When i finally reached the place, i saw my ex-colek from another consultant co, and my poly classmates, and i was told that quite a number of them also working there. Jia Lat....

anyway, during the interview, we had a good talk with two of the senior/mgr. They seems quite keen to recruit me, sharing the salary aspects and the letter of appointment but in the end, they told me to wait for their call on Monday. If the answer is positive, then i can go down for the letter of appointment.Hopefully, everything goes well.....

I forgot to add in why i put in this coming week will be a busy one, two days have been blocked out for ch events. (1 for puppet and the other is for caroling). beside than this, i also have my own personal agenda. :) so think the whole week will be fully booked again. if not, i will be doing something else.
Looking forward to this coming week.

Seems, nothing to write for today.

As usual, today's 3rd week of the mth, meaning got h.c. Early in the morning, got the privilege of sitting in a bus with the C.C.C's pp, we hop on the bus 136 from Kovan MRT stn. At first, i didnt really noticed them as usual i would prefer to remain in my own world early in the morning when my mind is still half awaken and my mind is on the duty i suppose to do during the h.c. But quite a number of pp, was waiting at the bus stop, i was a bit curious, then when the bus was in Sengkang, more pp drop in and they seems to know each other, said hi to each other.

Hmmm, by then my curious got the better of me, so i open up my ears to spy into their conversations. So they were saying abt how's their week, and their lives, gossips etc. Then suddenly, a person said, where's e ch? so the person with a kid sitting behind said, something the bus turn round the corner, and diagonally is the place. Already by then, i knew they were from C.C.C. and the ch is just diagonally opposite 1 of a pri sch in P.
so anyway, when we get off the bus as what i expected, since the bus will terminating at P bus interchange. so quite a number of pp actually living in S near the r.m.

Today is CG day and due to only left 4 person is available(me,hz,jh &jo)so the meeting was postponed. so after sv(me,hz,jh,ben,R,Will,Jen,Ken,grace, many others...)went to the nearby newly opened shopping mall and have our lunch there before heading to the Bishan Park to watch the frisbee games and playing "Bridge" at the same time. Ben and R went "dating" together. haha... Just joking!!!!
Though i'm playing the "Bridge" most of the time, i glanced at them playing, wow...their skills are so far superior than us, with few of us can match to their standards... must improve our skills to greater heights... but not with our power but's God. :)

Played frisbee with my sandals(nearly wrote "scandals"...hehe)today and found out would be better if i played with proper running shoes.Had dinner at one of the rare kopitiam there with G,Will,Vic & Deb before departing for home. Had a long day today and it's time for me to hit my pillows.

today was doin on the purpose driven life chapter 5. Actually i missed reading a couple of days so i decided to restart by reading the chapter 1. sometimes, when i do something, when i missed out something or sequences, i will start over again. Hopefully i wont missed again, or i think i will never complete the whole book or i will finish when i'm L.K.K.

okay, summarized the whole of chapter 5. The title is "seeing Life from God's view". the 1st question that the writer point out it" how do you view life", because it will define a persons perspective of life, his expectations, or goals, his values, or even relationship. All these are man's life metaphor. The writer said instead of looking at ourselves, why dun take a look at God's view. Verse taken from Rom 12:2 it's has 3 such metaphors.
1) Life on earth is a Test. it is to allow God to develop our character. We are always been tested by God ranging from small matters like offering our services to others, to handling problems and even worse circustances. To understand that when life is a test, then everything will be seems so insignificant because we know that it's for our character development, and everday is an opportunity to demonstrate love, depend on God and deepen our character.
2) Life on earth is a Trust.it's our duty to manage and take care of God's stuff. all the things that we poccess is from God, and we are just his care-taker while our time on earth, and He will pass it on to someone when it's time to do so. at the end of the day, we will be rewarded to how much we have been entrusted with.

seems like i like to continue but quite a number of points just simply disappear from my memory. :)
but 1 point from the male speaker that caught my attention is that even when we share/preach the gospel, pp tends to observe from our daily lives within our family. If we do not have a good testimony from there, then how can pp believes what you preach is true, unless you can show them that it's working in your family life.

another thing that moved me was the point that the female speaker shared of her struggles with her husband intially. think it was her trust in God and prayer for her husband moved him to be reconciled together again. though for the past few mths, we have been preached abt a.p, but are we sure of the methods/ways is sure to be workable. In a relationship, who's the one in charge and make things work out, i was referring to all kinds of relationships, from couples to even friends? Even though the speaker didnt clearly stated her method, but did she really have a specific method that helped her marriage to work? God is working.

to the end of the session, the speaker offered to pray for those who had in their life never been hugged by their physical dads, to stand up and he will pray for them. for the first time in my whole life, i was surprised by myself to have the courage to stand up n be prayed. In the past, tink i will b too chickened out. when, he was praying, just sudden i felt God's hugging me, i dun know, just felt it, and i began to tear. Suddenly i feel so loved. :)
Thank God that i went last Friday. It was such a wonderful thing to know God loves me, and i'm so touched by his warm presence.

Today, supposed to go meet @ 3.45pm at S MRT to go to kenJen's place for a discussion session 4 h.c Xmas party, so wake up a bit stressed up knowing that i have to finish on my part for tmr H.C b4 heading to S. But thank b to God, i complete the whole process in abt 1 1/2 hrs. :) was quite lost during the whole process, felt like i'm sitting in instead of being involved. But i would love to take this chance to learn from them who are quite experienced involving the initial planning to the consolidation. quite sotong!! haha... since i'm the 1st time, take it as a learning opportunity.

after that, me ,R and A.H walked to C.P mall, to walk ard, A.H went to look for shoes, while R was lazing ard after his exam while i went to the lifebk shop to listen to music. so cheapskate of me, but no choice lah, since i have no $ to buy the C.D so we parted from there. Have to get back to finish up my Cell Group's mat'l, still hv 1/3 to finish.

Part 1: I think i'm going to have a very very long blog today, so i hv decided to break up my tots. Today, had quite a long day, yet a bit boring day, y? 2 of my coleks in my small unit took leave, so left me e only 1 there. and oso no mood to work too coz i'm checking my work over again2x. but glad tt i do so, i spotted 1 more mistakes though a minor 1.

was orginally had planned to drop by my ex office to visit my coleks. Until, abt late afternoon, rec'd a sms fr a sis-in-christ whether i'm going for the b.s @ N.C.C. hmmm, seems quite a good idea and i agreed loh. so we agreed to meet at C.H at 6pm since we finish work ard the same time. We took a walk to the Memorial park and watch some frisbee game. By the time we reached there, the game have not started and we didnt watch the match. Made our slow walk to the e rock, and opps, we found out tt we have walked to the dead end inside M.S.

had dinner together with her at a seat o/s Carrefour and start chatting. Think i must have bored her during our conversation, and i must have sort of hurt her when i talked something which is quite or very sensitive to her and i feel so terrible after that. to that sister, i just want to say sorry, i don't mean say things to hurt you. Actually, sometimes i'm quite inconsiderate and just blar out my tots, i didnt put myself into others' shoes.I'm so sorry, pls forgive me!

Me and my friends are so used to "broadcast" aloud all these stuffs. haha.. to us, it's quite a common topic to discuss. Didnt know can be quite a issue to some. Hmmm, i have learnt something today on how to discuss on this topic more considerate manner. :)

but overall, i'm glad tt i went to tt svc, it's changed my perspective of our father's love for us. today's topic is also on marriage. Unlike our usual sermon on active parenting, i'm quite looking forward to the sharing when the paster said tt he will be doing something diff today on the B.S. 2 speakers were thus invited to share and it was quite a eye-opener for me as they shared with their experiences, from a broken family to a God-leading family. have brought home some thoughts which i will share on the part 2. :p

So tired after a long day facing the pc, shall stop for today. will continue tmr morning. (20 Nov2004)

I'm been counting down to Christmas everyday. Very excited and looking forward to our yearly ch retreat and of course Christmas Day.
I have been diligently practising the "invisble" puppet, at first with my right hand, before with both of my hands though both still quite stiff.
...continued from my last post, when i met up with my 2 ex-coleks, was thinking of dropping by to say hi to J&R but think i just cant bring myself to face them. had been wanting to share with them my side of e story in tt incident but dont know how will be their view of me after hearing my side story? sometimes, i just simply let my fear overcome me. :( Okay, i have enuff of my own "......"

Had a very slow and boring day as i have completed my work ahead of my schedule and my supervisor seems stucked to produce more work for me. As he is always not at M.T, i often had to contact him through the phone. Was quite contented at first, when he said that he had nothing for me to do when i called in late morning. So he asked me to wait for him to come to M.T and assigned work personally, wow, so have a early lunch with a colek in office. so sian, after lunch, i started my long wait for my supervisor to come, and he took his own sweet time to come. By the time, he came it was close to 2pm and still i got nothing to do. Lazed around office and do a lot of day-dreaming... a bad thing to do!!

When i asked my supervisor for the company chop, he said that why dun i make a trip back to my head office to get the chop since he has nothin for me to do anyway. So i went out there at about 4.30pm and reach the place at around 5.15pm as it was quite near to M.T
Finally get the chop and....I just realised tt i blundered again in my T.S again...firstly, i forget to take my copy and secondly, i didnt initialled on the T.S. Aiyoyo!!!! so careless of me...
sometimes, how i wished i will be more detailed person! but never mind, i'm what God created in the beginning. Just have to accept myself as who i am.

From my HQ, where it's near to the East, i took MRT and intend to stop at B, but i was quite reluctant since my office is so nearby. What if i happened to bumped into one of them? But anyway, i decided to drop at tt stn and take a bus home, in that case, i think will be a lot much faster. As i was walking along a path, just outside my ex-ofc, i really bumped into 2 of my ex coleks. They seems quite happy to see me, and had a chat with them. As 1 of them is rushing to her appt, we parted. At first, i was quite fearful that e incident had sort of broken up our friendship as it affected them directly. but after talking to them, i'm still unsure, perhap our friendship is not really that close any more. I really dun know!!! But was very glad to see them again since i left the co last mth.

I'm really getting excited about putting my thoughts to other pp from my church basic, close friends, and to even the rest of the world. It's help me to vent out all my feelings, be it good or bad. After saying all my thoughts out, often feel a lot better.
I guaranteed that i will input my thoughts everday, but of course as days passes, i will also reached a plateau where i have nothin much to write, maybe it will be the day i will post in less. :)
Okay, enuff of my ranting. Have to shut off my p.c before it go "gila" again.

1 nite, a man hd a dream. He dreamd he was walk'g along e beach with e LORD. Across e sky flashd scenes fr his life. 4 each scene, he noticed 2 sets of footprints in e sand: 1 blong 2 him n e other 2 e LORD.

When e last scene of his life flashd b4 him, he lookd bk @ e footprints in e sand. He noticed tt many X along e path of his life there was oni 1 set of footprints. He oso noticed tt it happend @ e lowest n saddest times in his life

Tis really botherd him n he questioned e LORD abt it.
"Lord, U said tt once i decided 2 follow U. U'll walk with me all e way. But i hv noticed tt during e most troublsome times in my life, there is only 1 set of ftprints. I dont understand y when i needed U most You wld leave me."

The Lord replied" My son, My precious child, I love you n wld never leave you. During your times of trial and suffering, when you see only 1 set of footprints, it was then that I carried you."

Today, had times for self reflections at MaCritChie Reservoir Park, went there pretty early at abt 8.20am with 2 sisters I.C. Enjoyed with God in walking through the whole course of the terrain, though the grd was quite slippery but thank God that i did not slipped. some thing extraordinary happened, as i walked along the path, saw three female monkeys, with their baby monkeys holding tightly to their bellies. So cute but Oh no, i do not have a digital camera. then i start to complain to God tt i do not have a camera and the scene was so cute. The three mother monkeys were like sitting on the branch, seems monkeys also talk but i dont know how they communicate with each other since they do not really open their mouths. but from my observations, they do communicate. I feel like shooting all their movements down but quite paralysised with no equipment.

Suddenly, from the corner of my eyes, i saw a stranger holding a digital camera shooting at the monkeys, was thinking of getting them to email/mail the photo when 1 of e sis said why dun ask for their permission and both of us was so eager to get to e hold of e photo, we rushed there to ask her, in the end, she agreed to email to us thru email. So thankful, becoz mayb once in my lifetime, will i able to witness such a marvellous scene again. The lady was quite receptive to our suggestions n w/o questioning, she gave us her contact no for us to sms our email addy to her. Will post the pics online when the lady emailed back to us. so eXcited!!!
Thank you Lord for such a wonderful day.

Another holiday again... and it happened on Sunday. From the time i woke up this morning, i have been feeling tired esp when i made my way to the bus stop to go to ch for sunday service at 9.15am, was again late for service, but not for the worship part, just managed to miss the prayer part. so coincidence, met C on the way in the bus and we both came to ch 2gether.

Had a good time of worship today and finally the sermon-sharing is not active parenting for today but "maximizing singlehood". The sharing part is so fast that when i finally settle down to concentrated on the sharing, it was coming to the conclusion part. I look at C and said so fast, and it's not even 10am. this sharing is one of the shortest i have heard it.

Celebrated Jo's bd at Bishan's S during lunch. After lunch headed to my fren, R's cell group at Kallang area, so i went down to her ch which is quite near to D.G MRT, so that she can fetch me to her house's cell. She invited me down to her cell last month but due to the frisbee committment, i have turned her now a couple of times. but since now, i wont be able to play frisbee for now, i decided that i can pay a visit to her cell today. Of course, she's more willing to let me join in her cell. Had a rather a boring session. Unfortunately, i fell asleep during the first 10mins or so, then in the end, i think the B.S leader also know and she announced loudy that those fell asleep better wake up. She's referring to me because my position is like sleeping on the sofa. I know why i fell asleep so easily because i was laying so comfortably at the sofa while alse others was sitting on the floor. haha...bo bian, i'm the VIP today. :p

Today the bible study i attended is in Mandarin and there's a lot of unfamilar terms that was used, so i'm quite lost and have to ask some of them to explain the meaning, they are very friendly and helpful and so understanding, because i keep pestering them to explain different words or what's the discussion about. :)

Close to the finishing of the B.S, they have this prayer for each other like what our ch called works. Oops, i dont even know how to pray in Mandarin so in the end the only word that came out from my month during prayer is Amen. Ya, but i missed the frisbee game today, wonder how's the game? Is it raining as heavily in the E area?
and worse of all, my only running shoe is rendered useless now since i oso cant wear it. That's means i wont be playing frisbee for quite a long time.

Yesterday was a very tiring saturday, why? i went shopping almost the whole day, in the morning, was planned to go alone to the Expo to get some cheap and nice clothings and books. Expo is having a couple of events there like the John Little sale, book fair, wedding fair and some IT stuff events.

When i woke up this morning, my sister was supposed to go for her medical checks for her employment. but due to some misunderstanding and confusion, she was late and couldnt make it on time to the clinic. So the appointment with the clinic was postponed to next week. Since she didnt went to the appointment, me, my sis and my mum went to the Expo together. Had a fun time shopping coz there's simply too many cheapo things around, but due to my tight budget, didnt buy much. Went to the book fair, and i got myself some motivational books, at first my intention was to get friction books for myself, but again the thought of my budget came to my mind and i dumped away all the f books and bought the rest. while my sis left empty-handed, but of course she bought a lotsa of clothes. :)

After which we have a short break before my sister has to head to her b/f's house, apparently, he had call her so many times to hurry my sis. so in the end, our shopping came to an end and both my mum and sis took a cab together while i took the MRT to meet R to go to another fair, which is our Navigators' annual carnival. Bought a couple of christian literature books and a Nav diary2005. Was thinking maybe of bumping into one of the nav pp which never happened while R met up with a old fren oso from Nav. :9

Had dinner with R and her ch fren at P.B Sing Post before accompanying her to view a 2nd hand piano at one of a bro-in-christ's place. Finally she made up her mind to get it from tt person thought i still reserved some doubts abt tt guy but it's up to my sis-in-christ to make the decision.

Oops, i have overspent my weekly budget, think i can do some fasting next week.. so "holely" of me to have such thoughts!!!:p Okay, enuff of my "nonsenses". Got to sleep, tomorrow have ch service in the morning and i dont want to be late again for the service.

Felt today was quite a fruitful day, as i had set targets for myself to accomplish. was satisfied today even though i have missed hitting my target by just that bit but at least i'm not doing my work at a leisure pace which can be very frightening. Had been through that stage before, and i'm not at least interested to be in at position again.

today in order to accomplish my goal set in the morning, i even did to the extent of skipping my lunch but of course i brought my set lunch to work. the thought of having to exchange the security pass will at the entrance of the building already made me half "sian" already. so no way, i'm going to change my pass so many times for that short lunch. at workplace, security was so tied that no internet allowed, and so many codes to remember. Think my brain is going to explode any time.

Went down to P.S St with a sis-in-christ to enquire on a course abt nutrition and health. it's was my sis who noticed abt the newspaper cuttings and ask me whether i'm interested to go and look at the course since she's also quite keen on this topic. so in the end, we agreed to meet and down to the school. So i invited myself to go with her to her church's prayer meet and it's a Mandarin Service.
During the service, was a bit lost esp the prayer starts. Esp, when prayer sheets was handed out to us, though i could recognised the words but just couldnt figure what is the meaning of the word. That's how "good" my Chinese has become.

Okay, that's all for today! I'm going to enjoy my day tmr, have oredi plan out what to do tomorrow. :p

Okay, time for me to get back to my book-reading. have just started to read a book but always lacking of discipline to complete and i cant read the book too long and most imptly, i must read the lines for a couple of times before i can understand wat's inside the lines.
That's also explain why i took ages just to complete a book. Pretty desperate to finish coz it's a borrowed book from my ex colek. still have a cupboardful of books unread to go.

Sorry to those who have been reading my blog, understand can be quite difficult to comprehen on what i have written coz my "England" is so "powderful". But anyway, thanks for dropping by. :p

today spent almost more than half the day with my ex colek, R. we suppose to meet at 7.50am at B Bus Stop but because i was late the other time, and she reminded me not to be late this time. In order to not to be late, i have to force myself to wake up at 5.30am so that i wont be late AGAIN. Went to the B resevoir park to jog and chit chat with R at the same time.

After that, we head to the nearest market to have our breakfast and R suggested that instead of going home, we shall proceed to the Expo to visit the John Little Sales and the Book sales. so she drove some of us there while the rest have their own motor-cycle so no one have to take cab there. Had an enjoyable time looking at the books and was so tempted to buy since almost all the books are cheap like siao. but my budget are pretty tight nowadays. Perhap, i'm more keen to the Navigators annual carnival sales this coming saturday. hehe.. Join the rest of the bros at ECP for pinic party before heading home at abt 4.30pm. Took bus home but was so tired that i fell asleep during the whole bus journey but just managed to wake up on time to alight. Thank God for that, because i got the tenancy to over shot my bus stop when i'm asleep on the bus.

today i was really looking forward to work after a day off yesterday due to a eye prob. actually was so bad that i didnt slept at all on sunday night, but still tahan to go to work on Monday. but until evening time cannot tahan so decided to go visit my family doc whom he recommended me to see a specialist which he fear that a condition may be a symptom which may lead to a cause may lead to blindness so i was referred to a specialist.I got an appt which will happened on the last day of the year. Oh no, still have to tahan the pain. :( and somemore the painkillers didnt helped much.

enjoyed my day at work though the work may seems boring at times and it's only the 2nd day esp the time with my colleagues in a small and humid room. As it was a very secured area, only few authorised pp can enter so the room can be quiet at times but today quite a lot of things happening so was quite distracted by the happenings. We always talk rubbish to entertain ourselves... not bad, always looking forward to work everyday.

today, our company knocked off work at 5.30pm because every Wed and Friday we work from 830 to 530. the rest of the working days will be finish at 630. :p i'm quite fascinated to see everyone pack up and go home on time even though they haven finished their work unless it's really urgent.seems everyone in the co is a bit nuah, even have the time to celebrate someone's birthday during working hours.

today our supervisor told us to finish all our work by 5.30pm and leave the office or ELSE!!! why? she's also rushing off to her vacation after work until Monday. so good, how wish i also got this luxury to go for a short holiday!!! :P
by the time, i left office by 5.40pm, the whole office is almost deserted, all the top management staffs have gone off, except handful still lazing ard. dun know if the public holidays tomorrow helps to pull the pp away from their work.

coincidentally a sister in Christ,A called me up to have dinner together since she's free tonight and she said she wanna treat me dinner but anyway i agreed loh since it's been some time since i met up with her and tomorrow is a holiday. :p

in the end, we had dinner at NUSS. Had a wonderful time spent with her, catching up and chatting about everything under the sky.:) but thank God that i left my handphone in my friend's car. or my whole dinner mood will be totally destroyed by the call. We shared the food cause we also have no idea what to eat so we called few chinese dishes and so blessed by her because she treated me again. so nice of her. during our dinner, had shared with her abt some things related to my past job and also my struggles, she gave her views which i find it very logical and encouraging. Thank you, A for all your help and advice. :)

okay, after dinner when we returned to my fren's car, got a shock of my life, had 5 missed calls. and one of them is 1 that i will never think of returning back the call.let call the person X. but think i made the mistake of returning that call. once X heard my voice, X started to accused me of doing something which X thought that will hurt the business, and some more X had no hard evidence to prove that. so i told X straight in (her/his) face that i did not do that and dun need to offer my explainations to (her/him). though X said trust in faith what i said but the voice contradicts to what X said lor. so all X's words plus the straining in my eyes made me blowed up at (him/her) lor. anyway, counts X lucky because i said to X less than 10 sentences. But I'm still fuming even now.

anyway just wanna let loose of my steam of anger. ;0 when i heard it from another person that he spread the news around in the Off even more "kua zhang", it's really makes my blood boils. thinks X always never find the facts will ballooned the balloons so big that it will always double or triple the orginal size. buay tahan!!! but anyway since i'm not in the company already, let X blows as big as (she/he) wants.

Should i explain the whole thing to X since X maynot fully understand? it's a remarks made to X by another pp and (he/she) just blowed it up.I'm not sure shd i or not,but i always allows my emotions to go wild sometimes so i wasnt able to control my logical thinking at times... Oh No!!!

"Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind, then you will be able to test and approve what's God's Will is, His good, pleasing and perfect Will." Hopefully i get it right

It's been quite a long time since i reviewed all my sciptures that i have memorised and mediated on them esp my TMS and God's promises, not forgetting God's Love. and i have since put them aside in one particular of my meomory. sometimes i also get the verses mixed up, oops!!! for the past 1 week, i have been challenging myself to start memorising them over again. But seems like the spirit is willing but the flesh is weak. Okay, i shouldnt said that actually but i think i'm not determined enough to motivate myself to do so. aiyo, at least during school days have my Bible Study leader breathing behind my neck, now i have to blow at myself. :( okay, i dont want to said too much just in case i accidentally pull my CG in.
actually i had an idea last week but too "stoned" to share with the rest of the CG and i'm not too sure how receptive are they?

why Rom 12:2? cause during our CG discussion, someone mentioned abt his missionary trip. then it kept me thinking of my desire wanting to become a missionary and the time spent at volunteer teaching in Guiyang, China. :)Had really good memories in Guiyang, so it just sparkled of my desire once again. :)

Sounds good if i can go back Guiyang again and give those children a big hug but wonder if they can still remember me?
okay, just a thought that will never materialized again. But....??? Who knows in the future! :)
Hope you guys not bored by my "rubbish" today...
Have a great week ahead.

Must thank Ray today for his suggestions for my out of position icon...
i cut out the whole html and paste it somewhere below and it's works. so it's wont look out of place. Thanks Ray. :)

Phew!!! Finally it's weekend. Means church and Frisbee game, and also i will be starting work this coming Monday.

Saturday is quite a draggy one coz i'm quite busy doing something which generate little/ low production...Have i been wasting my time away, yes, my answer is YES!!! i started my day without any goal in mind, that leads to been soooo unproductive. Been doing things that doesnt produce little or no results.... :( Had been applying for perm jobs thru online but end up doing none except i apply with one public sector potential future career. Guilty to say that i spent most of my time browsing thru the net aimlessly and doing some touch up to my blog. :p

Sunday:
Was late for today service, met with C and went to church together. Oops, recently my alarm just simply refused to ring every sunday and today is no exception. so end up waking up at 7.30am instead of the usual 7am. one of this days must dump it into the dustbin. hehe... :p
Had birthday celebration for B during lunch at Olio Dome after our cell group, the lunch was quite horrible, it has a strange tasting and smell like "wasabi", i literally swallowed the whole sandwich into my stomach. Felt so cheated for the exp and horrible sandwich, regretted i shd have order the one similar to WB but anyway no point complaing since it's over and the sandwich is going to be processed into waste that's going to be dump into my toilet bowl tmr morning. :P

Aiyo, had an accident again at the frisbee...so lucky always on target. this time is my right eye. maybe it's time for me to stop playing since i'm so accident-proned!! i always said that, but it's just happening...just couldnt stop myself from playing, guess i must have fallen in love with that round thing.
still have to work out on my physical fitness, was panting like a dog after running barely one round of the field.

well, guess have to turn to bed early today coz tomorrow is my first day of work. ;P so excited!

Yesterday, Friday was quite fruitful day for me.

Had been sending resumes in the whole of late morning and afternoon. Sucessfully sent out 7 resumes and got 3 replies already. :) as i think through, just this thought came to my mind, if i let go 100% to God, then God can do all the 100% work for me, even if i hold back even 1%... God will also be powerless by that 1%. Was encouraged by this sis-in Christ, J when i had lunch with her last Monday, she was sharing of so many wonderful things happened when she let go to God. So since then i have been saying such prayer of surrendering to God. and oops, i witnessed today that indeed God can work miracles in my life as well.

went to N.C.C in the evening with my CGL, though i went with much expectations , which in the end came with complains and grumbling.
but even during the svc, i was quite distracted, not by the S but rather my own thoughts. Just simply keep my mind shut.

After e svc, rushed home just to call my pru colek,J, actually she called me this afternoon.. but during the call, due to poor reception, i dropped her call. So feel a bit guilty, it was during the svc, i remembered. :p anyway, i also miss talking to her. Had a good time catching up with her and hearing her story tesifying God is so good all the time. But of course it's her own experiences, hopefully i also can have e opportunities to tell pp how good God is. I'm always so thankful for the friendship J & R gave, it's seems that i'm always the receiving end..it's not that i like to repeat myself but it's something i can thank God for everyday. :)

Okay, think better stop here, very long-winded and also very tired ... and also will be having an interview today 10am but still waiting for the HR Exec to sms the address to go today. so slow...Oops, complain again!!!

Today's Purpose Driven Life Chapter 2.

You are who you are for a reason.
You're part of an intricate plan.
You're a precious and perfect unique design,
Called God's special woman or man.

You look like you look for a reason.
Our God made no mistake.
He knit you together within the womb,
You're just what he wanted to make.

The parents you had were the one he chose,
And no matter how you may feel,
They were custom-designed with God's plan in mind,
And they bear the Master's seal.

No, that trauma you faced was not easy.
And God wept that it hurt you so;
But it was allowed to shape your heart
So that into his likeness you're grow.

You are who you are for a reason,
You're been formed by the Master's rod.
You are who you are, beloved,
Because there is a God.

So tired but satisfied after i have changed the outlook of my online diary including the colors which can be quite "original" and additional of items. Took me about 2 hrs to complete but of course with help from my sister who's quite expert in html thing.

Will do some more touch up before showing to my friends.

Quote of the day:

If you think you are beaten, you are;
if you think you dare not, you dont;
if you like to win but you think you cant, it is almost certain you wont.

If you think you'll lose, you lost,
for out of the world you'll find
Increase begins with a fellow's believing-
it's all in the state of mind.

If you think you are outclass, you are;
You' got to think higher to rise.
you're got to believe in yourself before you can ever win a prize.

Life's battles dont always go to the stronger or faster man;
But sooner or later, the man who wins
Is the man who thinks he can.

My Doggie 

My Beloved 

This morning, had my quiet time on the Purpose Driven Life and am doing on chapter 1...few thoughts on the lessons learnt:

1) I'm made by God and for God,
2)Finding the purpose of life starts with myself seraching on God's Wors since he's the source of my existence and not on some other sources like self help books but rather self sacrifice to God. Only in God then can i find God's purpose and destiny.
3) Thirdly is to allow myself to be used for his purpose so that i can become what God meant me to be.
4)Success in life doesnt mean = in God's purpose BUT
In God's purpose = Success in life...but again it can or maybe not in monetary, self-set goals accomplished but meaning in life.
5)In the book, the author said there's two ways to finding life's purpose ; 1) is to speculate either by philosophy etc 2) Revelation by God's Word.

Okay, that's all for my spiritual intake for today.